Julie

x_juliebean_x @ 2005-06-16T17:30:00

2005-06-16T21:37:39Z

okk so summer has been pretty cool so far..except 4 the fact that i got my root canal done..i actually just got the 2nd part of it done like 2 hrs ago..it hurt sooo fucking bad =( right now my mouth is numb so it doesnt hurt but i know ill be in soo much pain laterr

serra left me for 2 weeks lol thats depressing but were signin up for the gym when she gets backk im so excited! im gonna have a 6 pack by the end of the summer..just watch

girls are fucking biitches..but guys arent such a great prize either

you would think that sum1 would fucking learn their lesson the following summer that they fucked up BADD on the summer b4..but of course not..shit doesnt change..what did i expect?

ive also learned not to put my trust into girls as much as i did b4..i used 2 be a fuckin pussy and not say what i had 2 say..buut oohh not anymore...if u fuck up..ima let u know..dont mess with me cuz im not taking any1s shit nemore

glad that i got that out..for the most part

peace out homies x0x

x_juliebean_x @ 2005-05-30T13:04:00

2005-05-30T17:10:12Z

Whats does your personality rate from 1-10? by morning_prayer
Your first full name
Your personality rates a	ten!
your best quality is	deep inside ur a good person
your worst quality is	ha nothing! you rule!
this is because	you were born this way

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hahah yayy i like this quizz =P
just wanted 2 add it in lol ill post another timee x0x

x_juliebean_x @ 2005-05-25T22:22:00

2005-05-26T02:23:37Z

YAYYY!!!!!

SHE WON!!!! THIS IS THE MOST EXCITING DAY EVERR! hahah

i <3 carrie underwood!!!!

x_juliebean_x @ 2005-05-25T20:39:00

2005-05-26T01:19:25Z

heyy lovers.

well..2day is wednesday, and not including finals, one day of school left!!!! omgg so excited. but what im NOT excited for is writing an essay this weekend for mrs cremin for the last partt of my fucking final. gayy.

AP exams definitely sucked..but im soo glad they are over. i took my forensics final 2day - - so easyy. now all i have is one more test for the rest of the yearrr!!! actually no i have two makeup tests. that blows!

me and serra worked from like 3pM - 1Am on our american project..and it wouldnt burn onto a DVD so we burnt it to a CD and it only plays on a computer. and no1 could rele see the computer screen or hear the veryy cool music so basically it sucked and ima try to have aaron burn it onto DVD 2nite..ahh i hope it works. i need an A on it!

ohh...i forgot 2 mention that im in the midst of watchin AMERICAN IDOL..so there is going to be a lot of emotion thru this entry lol. basically meaning that if carrie doesnt win..oh yes..you all know what will happen

sooo i finallyyy got to talk to my REAL lover =P haha that was definitely the best!

yepp..still barely talk 2 my best friend..did i expect nething different tho??

omgg speaking of overly obsessiveness in my last entry...ya cant get ANY more annyoing..i have a freakin stalker..doesnt stop calling..sooo annoyingg..just leave me the FUCK alone already..damn

okk so theres only 55 minutes left of this damn show. im veryyy nervous! what am i supposed 2 look forward to EVERY tuesday and wednesday???? omgg thats so depressing. grr i cant take this nemoree..

im gonee biitches .. pray for carrie!!!!!!!
- much love -
meee!!

WHYYYYYYYYYYY

2005-05-10T23:47:39Z

heree is my whyYy list :

1. Why do teachers not know how to prepare any1 for nething?
2. Why do best friendS barely talk anymore because of their stupid significant other?
3. Why do i have such bad luck with everyything..alwayzz?
4. Why are some people so overly obsessive its gross? welll..i guess i shouldnt be talking there lol but i mean so overly obsessive about YOU and your not about them!
5. Why cant you ever have that ONE person you really want?
6. Why do the people you lovee leave you..literally
7. Why cant YOU just stay off my mind so im just a little bit happier

but then again...

8. Why cant you stay on my mind and comee back so im even happierr
9. Why?? Just why??

butt on a brighter note:
1. Why is American Idol such a good show

orr better yet..

1. Why is carrie sooOoo fucking hott LoL

yayy american idol is onn hollerr
x0x0 luvv me

x_juliebean_x @ 2005-05-09T21:00:00

2005-05-10T01:05:10Z

oKk so ive been extremely stressed out with skool lately..butt theres only ONE more AP exam left so im happpyyyy!!!!!! but of course this exam is going 2 suck soo ill postpone my happiness until 2maro after i take it =( lol

i think ive been outta my house ONCE in 3 weeks to actually chill with sum1 and not worry about school...i needa a damn break already..barnes and nobles is like officially my 2nd home...andd im not thrilled to be saying that either.

theres like 14 days left of skool..plus i still have like 6 absences left lol so its rele only 8 days left =P yayyness..thats exciting

uhhh..im kinda talkin 2 sum1 again..butt DONT ASK who cuz everytime i tell sum1 about this kinda shit...everthing gets messed up..u kno wat kinda person i am when it comes 2 relationships lol ... or do u?

hoLler im goin 2 eat dinnerr

x0x0x peAce oUt <333

x_juliebean_x @ 2005-04-22T21:23:00

2005-04-23T01:39:50Z

yOneSs lol whats good people? im bored soo i decided 2 write here...

well a few weeks ago, the 7th was my bday..and i went 2 dC cuz my bro lives there faSho. it was sOoo much funn and i took like a million pics but stupid me..i took pics of like mainly ONLY monuments that almost every1's seen already newayz lol that was retarded!

i hung out with justin and jordan..funn stuff =P..and i went 2 the beach with justin and my back and the back of my legs got soo burnt..and now my back is peeling in one spot in a big circle lol weirD huh?

i definitely got a LoT off my chest yesterdayy..but dontt EVERrrr ask how i did it..cuz i dont even kno lol.. yeAh jamie im talking 2 u lol

i was supposed 2 chill with jared last week but never got 2..so i mite this week but probably not cuz nothing ever works out...

im so streessed out cuz of APs..i dunno if i even care..do i want 2 pass? yes and no lol i dont wanna waste my time studying but i wanna pass so it looks good but w/e yall kno ill still study newayz so it dont matter if i say i care or if i say i dont

all year i always want the school year 2 be over..but then when it gets close 2 being over..i dont want it 2 be over at all..i miss people cuz i never see ne1 durin the summer...andd im gonna miss all my seniorsssss =( i cant believe im gonna b a senior next year! woww thats outta control. then ima b cryin my ass off when next year ends lol duHhh

omGgg....u kno that quote that says sumthin like dont be sad that its over be happy cuz it happened? lol i dunno if thats how it goes but basically thats it...im in love with that quote cuz its tru..but im still fuckin sadd so i hate the quote lol wtf! im so contradictory lol thats not a word is it?

i think i have a speech problem..i dont know how 2 pronounce words nemore..i always get words mixed up and everytime i talk 2 sum1 i stutter cuz im like scared or sumthin...grrr i got major problems

ok im done talkin sry =) x0x0

x_juliebean_x @ 2005-04-04T19:50:00

2005-04-05T01:09:20Z

what it is hoe

soooo....all i can really say is....my life is now complete....well at least for the most part lol..

i dont think ive been THIS happy in a long time..i mean yea ive been pretty happy lately...but this doesnt even compare =P

other than that skools alrite..im scUrred 4 AP exams cause of course i dont kno nething from all year..but thats okk cuz me and my lover serra are studying every sunday til our exams i think and hope cuz i rele wanna do good lol

basketballs over which sucks cuz i needa stay in shape..but i think im joinin a gym which is hotttness cuz ima have a sexii body fasHo haha

ok well summerland is hott and i need 2 watch my sexii bitch - - > JESSEEEEEE MUTHERFUCKIN MCCARTNEY....gawddd hes freakin gorgeous!!!

peaceeeee out biitches

x_juliebean_x @ 2005-03-23T00:58:00

2005-03-23T06:48:40Z

whOops...long time no write lol definitely my badd

holler....its spring break bitches!!! well so far break has been amazinggg..never had so much fun in my life lol

i spent a lot of time with my bro who came down from UCF...but now hes gone and ive been spendin a lot of time withh my bestest friendddd .. duhh thats brittany lol

well 2 start off...i dyed brits hair a darkkk ass brown..lol it was supposed 2 come out this rele pretty natural brown..but it dyed soo dark into her head that it looks blackk..and me and jill accidentally missed a lot of spots soo she kinda looks like a tigerr.. lol grRr! =P ....i also went with her 2 get her hair cut andd we saw gabe sousa outside hehe yummyyy! ive been goin 2 th beach alot tooo...that place is sum fun shit..

i went with jp and brit 2 the beach and jp was messin around callin guys over 4 brit..even tho theyre goin out lol...so we called this kid over and it turns out hes like 15 and in 9th grade and he was busted as fuckk..not even baby cute..but he chilled with us for a while then we called this other kid over..he was 18..and he was even more busted lol what luck rite?? thenn jp got under a big towel and me and brit thew chips onto him and all these birds..there mustve been like 50.. no joke..came flying on top of him lol and then i went under the blanket and the birds did the same 2 me haha..woww it was soo funny lol i guess u hadda b there??? o well...2nite i went 2 las olas..it was funn shit..kinda i dunno long storyy...

i also hung out with sum other people...lol umm yea ill xplain that later..and nething else u wanna kno bout these past couple of days jus ask me about cuz theres 2 much...

oKk have u ever like sum1 andd u were literally obsessed with them..then u started becomin close with that person and as time passed by u moved on but u still had feelings 4 that person in the very back of ur head..thenn much laterr u start becomin close with that person again and u want them reallll bad AGAIN?? omgg thats totally how i feel and it sucks..cuz this is what made me so depressed like last yr and 9th gradee..but then like i said imoved on and i was happy cuz i didnt care...and noww i definitely feel like that again and this cant be good cuz i dont like when im depressed..i hatee it =(

andd i miss sUm1 a lot .. which doesnt help with my saddness cuz i dont ever get 2 c this person and we were really close..jus 2 think how shit changes

well i cant wait 4 2maro i get 2 c my hottie - - > yess jamie thats u lol

t2u all lata...even tho no1 reads this now except 4 jamie probably lol o well peaceee

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x_juliebean_x @ 2005-02-26T11:56:00

2005-02-26T17:00:16Z

guYzz aRee pRiCks....foR reaL..

and im not just sayin that becuz i cant get one...but ive been hurt 2 many times that i dont want one nemore...like i told jamie...im now a lesbian (defffinitely a joke..remember that! =P lol)

x_juliebean_x @ 2005-02-07T16:25:00

2005-02-07T21:37:48Z

hoLLerr...

whats goin on?? nuttin 2 much here...im bored and for once i dont have ne homework..or at least i think i dont. well its been a while since ive updated...lifes been good...except for the past week..cuz i have pMs lol..but other then that im really positive and nothings been bothering mee! yayyy lol

well as u all probably figured would happen..me and brit r friends again =) ...andd me and jared dont talk that much nemore lol...of course that always happens butt thats not a new discovery either..but it doesnt bother me THAT much...soo dont worry bout it lol...

schools been gettin kinda easier..but mayb i shouldnt b sayin that cuz itll jinx everything..soo um yea skools hard lol...i canttt wait til spring break bitchesss! its gonna b so much fun..i mite go 2 washington dc 2 see my brother and look at colleges and other funn shitt like that

we have districts this thursday 4 bball..i think against douglas...were gonna kick their asses fashoo! we killed em twice..y not once more?? i really want the season 2 end cuz of the coaching and everything like that..but i dont cuz of the people...im soo gladd that i stayed on the team this yr..i got reallly close with people on the team who we hated each other 2 yrs ago..so thats str8 tooo..

well im bored and i got nuthin 2 do sooo im ouTt...
peAcee...(im now a certified gangsta since i got my hair brizaided lol)

oo hey jamie..i got onee -- "Let your fingers do the walking"...in my pants =P haAha thats so freakin funny

x_juliebean_x @ 2005-01-16T19:28:00

2005-01-17T00:40:54Z

hii every1..

things have been ok...me and brit still arent talkin..wat else is new? she doesnt wanna b friends with me just cuz we got in a stupid fite....yeea i miss her a lottt..but if all shes gonna care about is her bf then w/e it doesnt bother me...

soo i met this kid -- jared at the bowling ally last weekend...thanks 2 ally cuz she brought him =) ur the bestest lol...and weve been texting each other a lot and we talk on the fone and last nite me him jamie and adam all chilled...we went 2 wendys then we came back 2 my house...i had funn....hes suchh a funny kid and hes reallly sweet..and i think he got brownie points from my parents for helping my dad set up the TV in my house....soo thats whats actually good in my life now..

school still sucks rele bad i cant believe it started again i was havin a lot of funs..and hangin out with people i havent got 2 hang out with in a longgg ass time...

well theres a party 2nite and i was gonna go with jared..but he got in a fite with his mommm...so now he cant go and im sad =( lol i duno if im even gonna go cuz i dont even kno whos goin andd im sure itll suck..but ill prolly stop by for like an hr cuz its in my neighborhood

i guess im gonna go get ready 4 that now....ill t2u all laterrr x0x0x0 byee

btww...mandyyyy i miss u not bein in my 6th hr lol..... but seriously we NEEDAA chill...we keep saying we will but we never do!

x_juliebean_x @ 2004-12-31T01:43:00

2004-12-31T06:55:21Z

wowzerzzz lol...i havent updated in like 4 everrr...i kinda am starting 2 hate this thing and now i remember why i stopped writing in the first place...its a waste of time..and only like 2 people read it and blahhh...but whatever ill keep updating when im in the mood cuz its kinda cool 2 look back and see how big of a dork i was...but ill probably still be a big dork so it doesnt rele matter...

umm yeaa so breakk has been amazing so far..well sorta lol...well ive slept over brits house like 3 times already..chilled with my lover jamie...saw paul once...andd i definitely dont rele remember that much...so ill try my best 2 fill u in...

on wed..the last day..me serra, her bro, and her bros friends snuck into ramblewood..but then we got kicked out...so we tried 2 get a visitors pass but they kicked us out 2...thenn when we were walkin outt the door we saw all our teachers standing by the exit so we were happy we got 2 c themm holler lol....

i saw meet the fockers and darkness...meet the fockers was pretty good..it was soo funny i loveedd it....darkness suckked major dicks..it was such a bad movie...it was made out 2 b so much more than it rele was...and the ending definitely sucked...DONT SEE ITT..its a waste of money.....

what pisses me off the most is...i got used 2 the fact that me and brit will never chill alone...i mean always being with JP every minute of the day...but the fact that they like privately hook up in front of me and jill pisses the fuck outta me...and its not just once..its like alwaysss ...grrrr i cant stand it...

i had a bball tourny in okeechobee..i drove up the 1st day with brittany and tina and jill in brits moms car...we won our 1st game...of course i didnt play even tho we were up by like 15...then we drove him with brits uncle, went 2 cracker barrel, and i slept over brits house...then the next day we drove back up with brit jp and brits uncle and we were losing by like 30 cuz every1 was arguin with each other and the coach was putting every1 down so we couldnt play like a team...well..we were down by 30 and every1 played but me.. so in thee 3rd quarter...my coach came over 2 me and was like i wish i could put u in but u dont hav the skills 2 play with these kinda girls..ur not on their level..so brit was next 2 me and she was like well u dont c ne1 else doing nething in there do u?? so he puts me in on his stupid asss pity and i actually did good and he NEW it..but he doesnt trust ne1 i fuckin hate him...he thinks i fuckin suck but thats definitely not tru..yea i may not be the star player...but i definitely have skills and he just looks rite past shit...i hate him with a passion...grrrrrrrr lol...

well now im bored and dont kno wat 2 say so im outtieee...x0x0 goodnite

x_juliebean_x @ 2004-12-11T12:56:00

2004-12-11T18:20:58Z

my life is a nightmare from fukin hell..things rele dont like 2 change in my life..it just likes 2 make me miserable

well i kinda tried 2 block out every recent thing thats happened..cuz i dont think anythings been good..xcept getting presents for chanukkah...so far i got a shirt, perfume and pajama pants from hollister, 2 pairs of earrings..i dunno if i like them tho..we'll see...andd i also got new bed sheets cuz i guess thats a start on redoing my room...

butt unfortunately no matter how great my gifts mightve been...chanukkah fuckin sucked...it started tuesday night...and 1st off..that was the nite i had a bball game...well we won that..and my coach actually let me play and he said i did good 4 once...then i came home and this is where more shit in my life had 2 begin...everr since that night my mom has done nothing but start shit with me and make me pissed off....every time we talk we get into an argument and we get even madder at each other...

thenn wed i dont remember wat happened but im sure that day sucked 2...and then thursday i had another bball game at coconut creek....o mannn it was amazing! we were beatin them by 10 at halftime andd we were so xcited and pumped up that we were gonna win..but by the 4th quarter they caught up 2 us and were beating us by 3 pts...and at the last 2 seconds of the game brittany shot a 3 pter from like half court and shee tied the game..then we balled them up during overtime!! wooooo it was soo great...and i also had a game last nite..friday...against springs...it was also a very xciting game..and we beat them by 4 pts..hollerr..were actually coming 2gether 2 work as a team now..no matter how much we struggle..i like it

thenn after my game i went out 2 dinner with my parents which was a hugeee mistake the whole time all me and my mom did was fukin argue...ughh u rele dont understand..its like we cant say a word 2 each other without pissing each other off....so i told her not 2 talk 2 meand she got madd when i said that..i meann if ur gonna get madd at me when i do talk 2 u andd if ur gonna get madd at me for not talking 2 u..then what the fuckkkk is the point of talkin? i just get sooo frustrated cuz of her..grrrr..i wanted 2 beat the shit outta her last nite...she got so fukin madd at me that - becuz she started shit and i went along with it - that she wouldnt even let me go out with my biotchhh jamie...soo that sucked assss

this mornin i woke up at 6:15..went 2 bball...and got home at 9...and then i fell back asleep til 12:30..and i was supposed 2 have a fukin pedicure cuz my toes r soo disgusting butt since my mo was pissed at me she wouldnt fukin take me..so now im even madder as fuck..i feel like sitting in a little bubble this weekend and doing nothing...maybe i should start studying my ass off so i fukin make my mom proud of me cuz she cant seem 2 b proud of nething rite now...her job is making her stressed out..then she takes all that stress out on me ...fuck that shit

well i have jamies party 2nite...andd i dunno 4 sum reason im not as xcited cuz my mom ruined my whole damn weekend..its not that im not xcited 2 go..im just not excited 2 do nething this weekend...like im not even fukin xcited 2 go 2 the jingle ball concert...thats fukin odd aint it?

yeaaa well im out...sryy my entries jus keep gettin more depressed and obnoxious than the last....wellll dont fukin read it if u dont fukin care...lol im so nice....

~mee

x_juliebean_x @ 2004-12-08T21:25:00

2004-12-09T02:57:30Z

10 Bands/Singers you've been listening a lot to lately:
1. Rascal Flatts
2. Eminem
3. 50 cent
4. LiL jOn n the east side boyz
5. Simple Plan
6. Usher
7. Ludacris
8. Maroon 5
9. Snoop Dogg
10. T.I.

9 Things you look forward to:
1. WINTER BREAK BABYYY!!!!!!
2. Getting my own car!
3. The weekends
4. Having my parents out of the house
5. Being with friends
6. Partyingggg!
7. Getting A's
8. The days when im actually happy lol
9. Basketball used 2 be...

8 Things you like to wear:
1. Basketball shorts
2. Baggy shirts (sometimes so i dont sweat as much lol)
3. Jeans
4. HoLLisTer shirts!
5. Sweatshirts hahahh
6. Soffees and a Tank Top
7. Sports Bras
8. Anything thatsssss comfortablee

7 Things that anger you:
1. My parents
2. Most teachers/School
3. Basketball..or the people and the coach actually
4. Backstabbers
5. People who talk shit
6. People who dont kno how to walk in the halls
7. Life

6 Things you say most days:
1. Hottness!
2. Holler
3. Definitely not
4. O man
5. Fo Sho
6. WhaT a Dork

5 Things you do everyday:
1. Eattt..a lot
2. Play basketball
3. Go on the internet
4. Listen 2 Music
5. Talk on the fonee

4 People you want to spend more time with:
1. JAMIE my fuckin lover!
2. josiee..i miss my real lesbian lover lol
3. paul..we USED 2 b besttt friends..shit happens
4. myself sometimees lol

3 Movies you could watch over and over again:
1. Bruce Almighty
2. anything with hilary duff cuz shes fukin hott =)
3. Princess Diaries

2 Of your favorite songs at the moment:
1. MaRio - Let mE lOve YoU
2. snOOp doGg - dRop itt liKe iTs hoTtt

1 person you could spend the rest of your life with:
1. hmm..ill keep my mouth shut 4 this 1

NUMBER OF:
- height: 5'1"
- shoe size: 7.5
- hair color: dirty blonde
- siblings: 2 bRotHerz

LAST:
- movie you rented: i was supposed 2 rent the fish that saved pittsburgh butt i hated bball 2 much 2 do it at the time lol
- movie you bought: ..its more like burnt
- song you listened to: Let mE lOve You
- song that was stuck in your head: Let me Take You HomE
- person you've called: my mom...
- person that's called you: Brittany
- show you've watched: ...CSI 4 Forensics class...o wait..a show that i ACTUALLY watchedd?
- person you were thinking of: ..brittany..cuz i just wrote her name b4 lol

DO:
- you have a crush on someone: ughhh guys fuckin suck i hate em all
- you wish you could live somewhere else: definitelyy
- you believe in online dating: no way..that shit dont work
- others find you attractive: yeaa..ok
- you want more piercings: yesss.. i want a belly button ring already
- you like cleaning: definitely not
-you write in cursive or print: either

FAVORITE:
- food: pizzaaa
- thing to do: chill
- thing to talk about: anything
- drinks: coke
- movies: i dunoo..
- holiday: hanukkahh

HAVE YOU:
- ever cried over a girl: ...huh? lol
- ever cried over a boy: yeeea
- ever been in a fist fight: if gettin in 1 with my brother counts
- ever been arrested: nopee

WHAT
- shampoo do you use: Herbal Essence
- are you scared of: losing the people i lovee
- number of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends: i dont even kno..right now id have 2 say just 2
- number of people I consider my enemies: haha lets not go there

FAVORITE:
- disney movie: ?? i dunoo
- word: hottness
- nickname: Jules
- eye color: bluee
- flower: pink rose?

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE:
- pretty: definitely nott
- funny: sometimes..
- hot: noo way
- friendly: sometimes...but im shyyy 2
- ugly: yes =) lol
- loveable: of coursee
- sweet: suree
- dorky: i definitelyyyy am lol

x_juliebean_x @ 2004-11-29T17:01:00

2004-11-29T22:15:40Z

ive been wayy 2 fuckin busy and pissed 2 rite in thie shit...i dont kno how 2 let my anger out in here so i cant even try 2 write in it when im mad...but now im fuckin pissed again and i thought id try lol

i didnt go 2 skool 2day becuz i had 4 fuckin tests 2 study 4 this weekend and i never rele got a chance 2 cuz my bros came down and then i hadda work and all this shit happened and i never had time 2 do nething...soo last nite i tried 2 stay up as late as i could studying for all my tests and i stayed up til like 2 thinking that my mom wouldnt let me go 2 skool with only 4 hrs of sleep and still not finished studying....soo this morning i woke up and pissed my mom off by tellin her i wasnt goin 2 skool...we argued for like 10 min and im like i didnt finish reading the history chapter i dont understand my math or physics and forensics she gave us a review sheet that we never even learned half of this shyt and i only got 4 hrs of sleep so im not goin 2 skool so i slammed her door and fell back asleep...

thennn she wakes me up at like 10 and yells at me 2 start studying..so i start reading my history chapter and i wanna actually earn an A by myself soo i read the whole chapter in like 3 hrs and took notes and everything...then i called my bro 2 come over 2 tutor me for physics and math..and its 5 PM and he still hasnt come...i got the review notes 4 forensics..it turned out that i didnt have a forensics or physics test 2day but i still woulda failed math and history if i went....

i have bball 2nite at 7-9 and a game 2maro..and if u dont go 2 the practice the nite b4 the game thenn u cant play in the game...my mom wont let me go 2 practice cuz she said i missed skool 2 study i can stay home from practice and study 2...soo i FUCKINGGGGGGG cant go 2 practice and she doesnt give a shit if i dont play in my game or not and grrrrrrrrrr u have NO idea how much anger i fuckin have in me rite now i could fuckin beat the shit out of sum1....dont mess with me rite now

well my weekend was ok...last tuesday we won our game against northeast...i stayed home from skool on wed & my bro drove down from UCf and we went 2 breakfast then i came home and took a nap and went 2 bball...then thursday i just hung out all day with my bros...then friday i chilled with brit and jill and jP at nite wooooo it was funness =P....then i got home at 1 from her house..and i hadda wake up at 6 for bball practice on sat morning...i got home from that and fell back asleep then my mom came home from work and me her and my bro went 2 the boca mall and then out 2 dinner...i got home at 11 and i was soooo pissed cuz i was supposed 2 chill wit josie that nite but i got home 2 late and every fuckin time im supposed 2 chill with her sumthin happens...geeeze i havent seen her in literally 6 fuckin months this suckss..then sunday i worked and went out 2 dinner and yea u kno the rest from there....

well noowww i dont kno what 2 do..im soooo mad and bball is in 2 hrs andi havent called my coach cuz i dont kno wat 2 say and i wish my mom wasnt a fucking ass bitch like she is..but no thats how she is ughhhh....i cant stand this nemore i wanna move out..so many things make me unhappy i definitely have depression and i fuckin hate everything i cant stand my life

x_juliebean_x @ 2004-11-11T22:46:00

2004-11-12T03:58:45Z

wow what an eventful few daysss...i fuckin hate skool..i hate people..every1s so fake..i hate basketball..what else is neww

im doin even worse than last quarter..i have like 2 a's, 2 b's 2 c's and a D...wow thats just great aint it?? i REALLY wish i took dual enrollment..butt noo i never like listenin 2 my mom..this is why its so hard 4 me 2 make decisions..cuz when i do make my own..look wat happens...yess everything gets fucked up..but the good news is....im gettin switched out of physics!! (hopefully lol)...ahhh ive been waitin for this day for like....a long time lol..i cant stand this class..its like 10 times harder than AP calculus,..is that normal?? nopee not normal at all..

basketball can suck a dick...practically every1 is the biggest fukin bitch ever i cant stand goin 2 practice..thats y i liked JV so much..every1 sucked except like me and a few people so i felt like a leader...now im with people who are like abillion times better than me..and if i do sumthin rong..they like laugh at me or make me feel like shit...i bought new bball shoes and i get into the gym and every1s like omgg i love ur shoes julie whered u get them blah blah..and then brittany (not my brit lol) says out loud so i can hear but not 2 my face..our team color is navy blue and white...not royal blue and white..meanwhile shes sittin there fukin wearin ROYAL BLUE AND WHITE BBALL SNEAKERs...then the wholeee practice she jus kept grillin me and starin at my shoes...wtf r u jealous bitch?? good =) lol ughh it pisses me off..then i kno 4 a fact every1 talks shit behind every1s back..geeze u dont kno how much i hate ittt

i got in a car accident 2day..long story dont feel like explainn it..ive explained it to like 50 million people..so if u REALLLLY wanna kno..IM me and ill possibly tell u if im in the mood 2 type lol...but im ok..thats all that matters aint it??

i duno if i wrote bout this..but last week i hurt my leg rele bad in practice..and ever since i havent rested it soo its gotten worse and i could possibly have a stress fracture..thenn ive been restin it..and 2day i left practice and me and brit went out the side doors of the gym and it was pitch blackk and we start walkin towards the gates..and guess what..theyre locked lol... we couldnt go backk so we decided 2 jump it so i went 1st and i jumped ovver and landed on my freakin leg...wow thats great..now it hurts like a mother efferr..

well im madd tired and it blows that theres skool 2maro...but TGIF lol x0x0x

<3 mee

x_juliebean_x @ 2004-11-07T19:42:00

2004-11-08T00:54:47Z

grrr..my weekend sucked soo bad..

well friday it turned out that brit wasnt mad at me..she was just stressed out...so me her and jill went 2 dinner at roadhouse..then we met up with hugo and coco? lol i dunno if thats how u spell it but w/e...we drove all the way 2 copans road 2 meet these other people..it was sooo fuckin gay..and we were supposed 2 go 2 a party or sumthin..but by the time all his friends were ready it was like 12..and i had 2 b home in an hr..so im just like ya kno wat drop me off at home..i felt bad cuz we were so far away..but it wasnt my fault...or actually..i guess everythings my fault lol..

yesterday morning i woke up 2 go 2 bball..i dont kno y but i dont like basketball as much as i used 2...come 2 think of it..i dont like a lot of things as much as i used 2..thats not a good sign..thats a symptom of sumthin...maybe depression?? haha...well after practice i got my toenails done. holler..theyre hott pink and hottness lol...then i went 2 the broward mall 2 buy bball shoes...and i stopped in hollister...

dont u hate how u go out and ur lookin like shit (cuz in my case i was in my bball clothes with my hair all messed up and shit)...and ur at a mall and u see rele hot guys checkin u out..then YOU look around and see all these pretty girls in cute clothes and are like wtf...that pisses me off.annd thats what happened 2 me..everytime i go out i look like shit and i always see hott guys and im like wats the point lol..but then even when i do look good no1 even bothers lookin at me...arent i such a positive person??

then last nite i went 2 this kids party with paul and other people and my freakin cuzin was there..it was rele weird..and the party was gay...then we went 2 adams house cuz he was havin a party...and we watched the girl next door..thats a hott movie lol...

2day i got tutored for math..and then went 2 pauls house..and drove around with him 2 other peoples houses..it was funness...and now i have the worst headache and i need 2 do the take home test 4 mckinley =( this blows..im soo depressed its not even funny lol...w/e im out x0x byeee

<3 Julie `*

x_juliebean_x @ 2004-11-05T18:32:00

2004-11-05T23:44:07Z

well this week actually wasnt badd at all..thats a first...except 2day suckedd kinda rele bad lol..

i see brit at lunch and she tells me she quit basketball..and then i find out like all this shit that she never told me...howw the fuckk can she get mad at me 4 not tellin her shit when she cant tell me nethin?? wtf y do i put up with this?? no1 answer that question lol...its just that im such a forgiving person i cant help it...and shes obviously my best friend...so u just gotta forgive and forget and put things in the past..but just the fact that she continually does this pisses the fuck outta me.

after skool i see tina.. and we started walkin 2 bball practice..and normally i meet brit so we both go 2gether but she told me she quit so i didnt even bother..so tina said sumthin like is brit comin 2day? and im like no i dont think shes playin nemore..so tinas like yea rite and she didnt believe me...so im just like no im serious i dunno if she is...then brit calls and asks me if she should play and i was like umm..yea lol...so she asked where i should meet her...andd so i said 2 tina o im jk im meetin brit now i guess shes playin....soooo me and brit get up 2 the locker room and katherine brady is like brit i thought u quit bball...so brits like who the hell did u hear that from? thats not tru...and all this shit happened and she looked me at right away cuz i was the only person that knew...so im just like i only told tina but thats not even what i told her... so then we went in to change and.. after we changed im like will u listen 2 wat happened? and she like didnt answer me...so im like wtf u never wanna listen 2 my side of the story and wat i have 2 say..like she just always assumes that i fuck up...she didnt let me tell her the story andd we didnt talk the rest of the time...grrrrr

ya kno wat..even tho it may have slipped when i said it 2 tina...if brit didnt want me 2 say nething she couldve said dont say nething 2 ne1..lol its that simple....i just dont get it..if i always do and say the wrong thing yy does she still wanna b friends with me?? i give up with life...everythings wayy 2 complicated..

of course im doin nothin 2nite..im like not in the mood 2 talk 2 ne1 or nething...i always chill with brit every weekend..but things have totally changed..i dunno whats happened..i just want things back 2 the way they used 2 be..where we never fought...we did fun shit..and JP wasnt in the picture to change brit and my relationship...im sry i sound obsessive ab out brit lol..but it just hurts 2 kno that this shit happens soo often and things used 2 be so great until Jp came along...y doess this always happen 2 me......K im done talkin about that lol

well...i need a fuckin guy...im HONESTLY starting 2 give up and want a girl lol..like im so desperate u have no idea..this blows...life sucks..whats the point of livinggggg...i hate evrythingggg

x_juliebean_x @ 2004-10-31T11:56:00

2004-10-31T17:11:39Z

heyy heyy...

this weekend was alrite...friday i went 2 the halloween bingo thingy at riverside and i met this kid brandon..whos friends with 1 of my close friends eric...well brandon is freakin obsessed with me..but hes soo immature about it..i dunno i cant xplain it unless u c him...andd i still dont kno if hes in 9th or 10th grade..he told me he was in 10th and alll his friends told me he was in 9th..soo wtf which 1 is it?? and him and eric have been buggin me 2 chill with them all weekend and go 2 a party and trick or treating butt i dunno..i mite go trick or treatin with them 2nite but i didnt go 2 the party with them lol...then after i dropped them off at home..i drove around with jamie and adam..and we went 2 bryans party..then we left to go 2 alons party for a little bit and when we left there...every1 left bryans house... soo we went 2 pick up stephen at skool...and then we drove 2 bryans moms house 2 pick him up andd we were gonna meet paul 4 dinner but we drove around so much that it was 2 late 2 do nething afterr..

then saturday i got in a huge fite with my mom..and me my mom and my aunt all went shopping at the boca mall..but i was soo not in the mood...i wanted 2 fukin kill ne1 that talked 2 me...then saturday nite was emily b-day party at mykonos...it was soo much funn...we all ate and the bill for 10 people was 190 dollars lol it was craZzy..but sooo good...and at the end of dinner..theres like a tradition thing where u break plates...and the waiter threw the plate ont he ground and a piece of glass went into my leg..it hurt soo fukin badd and i was bleedin and all that good shyt lol..but w/e im ok now...then after we all got up and danced on the tables and counters and all thes pedofiles were just staring at all of us lol it was freakin scary but a lot of funn

i dontt kno wtf brittanys problem is...shes such a fukin bitch 2 me lately..and ya kno wat? im not gonna take her shit nemore...i dont care if she jokes about nething or not...im not gonna let her treat me the way she does..im sick of it...i start tellin her a story and she basically tells me im a fukin idiot..and she acts like shes wayy to good 4 me nemore...wtf people have major fukin problems

well im out i needa study 4 psych and forensics so i can go trick or treatin 2nite..oo yayy funness...happpy halloweenn every1! x0x0x0

x_juliebean_x @ 2004-10-26T15:21:00

2004-10-26T19:34:48Z

holller what is up people?? i just did bad on an american history test lol...a lot of people got caught a few hrs b4 mine andd so i was 2 scared 2 use the cheat sheet that i had lol..but i did have my pre written essay sooo that was alll good =)

2day was kinda gayy haha that rhmyed lol o mann...soo yea i get my period and i have THE worst cramps and i even took something 4 it but noo nothing everr works...i lost my voice all morning so i couldnt talk 2 ne1 lol then it cam back during 5th hr...wtf is goin on with me? am i sick or not?? lol

this past weekend was amazinglyyy funn...1st friday nite at roadhouse...ahh! the best time! me brit and jill ate and took pictures all nite lol then we chilled with jp and drove 2 nicks house and chilled with him and tom...and my mom finally raised my curfew! score like a whore!! now i can stay out til like 1...well i guess thats when shes in a good mood lol..then saturday i slept over brits house..wooo that nite was fuked up lol..things sucked at first but it turned out 2 b a relee funn nite..besides me breaking shit =( lol i feel soo bad...well that nite i went 2 bed at 4:30 and i only had like 4hrs of sleep..then we went 2 the mall for like an hr and drove 2 the beach 2 relax..it was hott shit..and i almost got raped at the beach! this guy came up 2 me and brit while we were alone and hes like hey guys come back 2 my place so we can have amassive orgyy! its gonna b so much fun please..a massive orgy! and he just kept screaming the words massive orgy!! omggg im scarred 4 life..like seriously that was the scariest thing thats EVER happened 2 me lol but im still hurrr so im oK =)

yesterday we ran sooo freakin much in basketball i had 2 run first 90 seconds up the stairs nonstop and then 120 seconds nonstop cuz me and brit got there late lol..then we ran like 30 times up and down the court cuz every 1 kept missing their foul shots..it was terrible! but w/e i want musclesss in my legs biotch!

k im goin 2 eat...lol wat else do u do when u have ur period?? =P

peaceee out <33

x_juliebean_x @ 2004-10-21T20:00:00

2004-10-22T00:38:45Z

whooops my badd...i havent written in a while lol...

well i think yesterday was the 1st good day i had in a while..thats a record aint it?? thenn when it finally gets better..of course shyt just ends up gettin worse again...i think im gettin sick =( ..i woke up this morning with a sore throat and a nasal thingy lol i was just really stuffed up..i got 2 skool and i started crying in serras lap lol..i was miserablere what can i say!

if yall dont kno...me david AND ryan are alllll through...and that is whyyy i am now a lesbian...on the weekends with ally...and everyday with jamie =) haAh...no seriiously tho..i reallly give up with guys!! either we get really close and he becomes an asshole..or we get really close and i start 2 think hes annoying lol andd all ne1 ever wants is just play..i want a fukin real relationship.. but that aint happenin cuZz im never gonna find anyyone...EVERRRR lol

o btw..on my report card i ended up with 2 A's, a B+, and 4 B's...theyre not my type of grades..but w/e i rele dont care nemore..theres nuthin i can do about it except regret being a fukin moron

well last weekend...homecoming weekend...was alottta funn =)...1st on thursday..the football game...adam and jamie came over and i wasnt readyy so jamie came in and helped me and even changed her outfit..and adam got sick of waiting so he left us there...sooo i decided 2 drive..and we had NO idea where we were going..but luckily..on our lost way there lol...we saw a JPT PRIDE jeep that was drivin 2 the game..so we started followin them..but they were goin like 80 soo yea we kinda got lost lol..butt thaas ok cuz we made it there alll good

thenn me and jamie found 10 dollars on the ground! woooo that was great lol..the game was alrite...we left early and went 2 bryans partyyyyy hollerrr. it was actually kinda fukin gay cuz every1 was beyond fuked up anddd no it they just werent cool...

then fridayy was homecoming night..of course i wasnt goin with david nemore and im real glad lol...but me jamie chantal adam and then stephen eric and erica all wentt 2 the beach til like 12:30 or sumthin i dunoo...but it was a lotttta funn...10x better then homecoming prolly was...even tho we DID miss the 2 guys kiss! aww man jamie lol

at basketball this week on tuesday montimurro slammed into my shoulder andd hurt me sooo baddd..and i kinda already have a bad shoulder so hes like omggg julie im so sorry blah blah blah lol..but noww i still rele cant move my shoulder..it hurts like a motherr and its bruised real bad

o well i have a feelin that ima wake up real sick 2maro and not b able 2 do NETHING this weekend..the 1 weekend where jP is workin and i can hang out with JUST brit lol...then where im able 2 sleep over brits and where i dont have that much HW..and all this good shyt..of course that always happens lol

well i gotta go study and do a project...grrrr thank gawwwd 2maros fridayy!

<3 JuLeZ

x_juliebean_x @ 2004-10-12T16:40:00

2004-10-12T20:52:44Z

okk the past few weeks have been so miserable 4 me..i dont kno wats goin on..i think i have a case of depression lol...well last nite was the worst...i was hysterically cryin on the fone with paul for like 20 minutes. everything was just making me so upset andd i had the worst migrane EVERRRR...i found out that i had a D in my english class and that was supposed 2 b our final grade or w/e...soo my mommy called the skool cuz i think the last time i checked...d's werent good! lol...my teacher was freakin counting practice sat tests for a grade..and sum1 like me whos such a horrible test taker obviously is gonna fail these tests...so i did fail both of them..but since my mom called my fukin asshole teacher changed it so we got a grade for "doing" it lol....wooo i feel much better about that

i also forgot 2 do my english project cuz she gives us like 10 assignments at 1 time and never mentions them again and i never kno when theyre do! so i got an F for that shyt...now my grades like a C+..wow cuz thats much better lol...

over the weekend me and brittany got in a hugee fight..i was over her house and i was soo mad at her that i didnt talk 2 her the whole night..i did however stay at her house lol..so i kinda chilled with jill all night...we all went 2 the beach andd chilled it was alrite..but i wrote a whole note 2 brit tellin her how i felt andd i dunoo if its gone thru her head yet lol

i neeeda do my psych project already! im goin into an elementary skool 2maro and im gonna b up alll night typing my report and this sucks..i ALWAYS wait til the last minute..but i definitely learned my lesson cuz all my grades suckkk this quarter andd i wanna do 10x better next quarter..ima work my ass off...prolly not but ya kno lol

i dunno whats goin on with me and ryan...when he talks 2 me online he acts like hes soo interested in me and he wants me 2 b interested in him...then when i see him in skool he waves hi and keeps walking like he cant even stop 2 talk or give me a hug or nothing lol...2day b4 skool i saw him andd i was standing there talkin 2 serra and he looked at me waved and walked into his class...the 2nd bell hadnt even rung yet lol wtf! i dont kno what i should doo...i feel like he likes a whole bunch of girls and hes just tryyin 2 c which 1 he would like better by leading us all on or sumthin...fuck this shit i dont care nemore

i have psats 2maro..that sucks real bad..and i have bball soon..and im tired and bored and prolly have alot of hw sooo immmmm going....byeeee

x_juliebean_x @ 2004-10-05T15:20:00

2004-10-05T19:27:59Z

2 muchh shyt has happened lately...

1st off..guy drama lol o man...in the situation im in..i kno 2 hearts r gonna b broken..and one of those will prolly b mine..but i still dont care and im willin 2 risk that...but wats the easiest way 2 break the other guys heart?? lol im stil workin on that andd i dont think i have the balls 2 do it..

well im not going 2 homecoming nemore..and it seemed like david was ok with it..but i mean wat was he gonna do cry? exactly..so im sure he was upset butt hell get over it..theres 1 thing hell get over haAh

this past weekend was okk..friday i went out 2 dinner at big bear i think lol i dont remember andd i ate a whole brownie sunday it was freakin huge! i feel like a fat mother eFfer lol..then sat was kinda gay..brit and jill picked me up frum my house at like 9:30 and jp was in the car and brit and him sat in the back and i sat up front wit jill andd we drove around 4 hrs andd no1 talked like at all then we get back 2 brits and brit and jp leave for like 45 min..thats just nice isnt lol..so me and jill had fun talkin...we drove 2 this rele scary park and there was a car parked there...andd this girl was givin this kid head lol soo as we were leavin we flashed the brights on them haha it was sooo funny

well im bored and tired and i dont think i have that much hw 2nite..thats a first...soo im going x0x0x0 byee

x_juliebean_x @ 2004-09-30T20:54:00

2004-10-01T01:04:06Z

omgg 2day was just another suckyy day..1st hr was soo horrible..we had 2 do this crime scene lab (the class is forensics) andd groups of 4 went into a storage closet in room 521 and there were like fake bloody footprints, and fake blood, and a fake knife on the floor and we hadda do all this shyt..and the people i went in them room with allll they did was argue i prolly failed that cuz no1 knew wat the hell they were doin...

i do not understand math at all..i missed the 1st lesson cuz i was makin up the test soo i have no idea wuts goin on. i alsoo have NO idea whats goin on in physics! and i have a fricken test 2maro im TOTALLY gonna fail im so screwed what do i do?!?!

psychology sucks now cuz i got moved 2 the front of my freakin class and my teacher like despises me 4 no reason at all..now i dont sit by jamie andd i cant cheat on ne tests cuz im all by myself in front of the teacher grrr..but its ok cuz me and jamie are even louder than b4 so we can piss the fuck out of our teacher hahah thats great lol

im having 2nd thoughts about going 2 homecoming...well i kno david likes me...but im just not sure if he asked me because cuz that was like 'the thing 2 do' orr cuz he REALLY wanted 2 go...i mean if he just asked me cuz its sumthin u ask a girl u like 2 go 2 thenn i think it would b stupid 2 go..cuz im not in the mood 2 pick out a dress and shoes and all that good shyt considerin i can never find nethin that fits me cuz of my size lol

i came home frum skool and had a splitting headache so i fell asleep and david wanted 2 hang out butt i did not feel well at all soo were gonna chill 2maro =) i hope this weekend goes good cuz i dunno if brit still wants 2 hang out or w/e lol ill prolly b sittin on my ass all nite evry nite..but w/e i guess thatll give me time 2 study 4 american so i can get an A! lol

well i g2g study 4 physics but theres rele no point soo i dunno why i am lol peacce out x0x0x