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(1 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [16 Jun 2005|05:30pm] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | tyLer hiLtOn - thAts hOw loVe shoULd bE ] okk so summer has been pretty cool so far..except 4 the fact that i got my root canal done..i actually just got the 2nd part of it done like 2 hrs ago..it hurt sooo fucking bad =( right now my mouth is numb so it doesnt hurt but i know ill be in soo much pain laterr serra left me for 2 weeks lol thats depressing but were signin up for the gym when she gets backk im so excited! im gonna have a 6 pack by the end of the summer..just watch girls are fucking biitches..but guys arent such a great prize either you would think that sum1 would fucking learn their lesson the following summer that they fucked up BADD on the summer b4..but of course not..shit doesnt change..what did i expect? ive also learned not to put my trust into girls as much as i did b4..i used 2 be a fuckin pussy and not say what i had 2 say..buut oohh not anymore...if u fuck up..ima let u know..dont mess with me cuz im not taking any1s shit nemore glad that i got that out..for the most part peace out homies x0x

(3 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [30 May 2005|01:04pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | gucCi maNn _ sO icYy`* ] Whats does your personality rate from 1-10? by morning_prayer Your first full name Your personality rates a ten! your best quality is deep inside ur a good person your worst quality is ha nothing! you rule! this is because you were born this way Quiz created with MemeGen! hahah yayy i like this quizz =P just wanted 2 add it in lol ill post another timee x0x

(1 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [25 May 2005|10:22pm] [ mood | ecstatic ] YAYYY!!!!! SHE WON!!!! THIS IS THE MOST EXCITING DAY EVERR! hahah i <3 carrie underwood!!!!

(1 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [25 May 2005|08:39pm] [ mood | nervous ] [ music | tHe kiLLerZ --> bRigHtsiDe ] heyy lovers. well..2day is wednesday, and not including finals, one day of school left!!!! omgg so excited. but what im NOT excited for is writing an essay this weekend for mrs cremin for the last partt of my fucking final. gayy. AP exams definitely sucked..but im soo glad they are over. i took my forensics final 2day - - so easyy. now all i have is one more test for the rest of the yearrr!!! actually no i have two makeup tests. that blows! me and serra worked from like 3pM - 1Am on our american project..and it wouldnt burn onto a DVD so we burnt it to a CD and it only plays on a computer. and no1 could rele see the computer screen or hear the veryy cool music so basically it sucked and ima try to have aaron burn it onto DVD 2nite..ahh i hope it works. i need an A on it! ohh...i forgot 2 mention that im in the midst of watchin AMERICAN IDOL..so there is going to be a lot of emotion thru this entry lol. basically meaning that if carrie doesnt win..oh yes..you all know what will happen sooo i finallyyy got to talk to my REAL lover =P haha that was definitely the best! yepp..still barely talk 2 my best friend..did i expect nething different tho?? omgg speaking of overly obsessiveness in my last entry...ya cant get ANY more annyoing..i have a freakin stalker..doesnt stop calling..sooo annoyingg..just leave me the FUCK alone already..damn okk so theres only 55 minutes left of this damn show. im veryyy nervous! what am i supposed 2 look forward to EVERY tuesday and wednesday???? omgg thats so depressing. grr i cant take this nemoree.. im gonee biitches .. pray for carrie!!!!!!! - much love - meee!!

(1 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) WHYYYYYYYYYYY [10 May 2005|07:27pm] [ mood | pessimistic ] [ music | bOw wOw - leTt mE hoLd yOo ] heree is my whyYy list : 1. Why do teachers not know how to prepare any1 for nething? 2. Why do best friendS barely talk anymore because of their stupid significant other? 3. Why do i have such bad luck with everyything..alwayzz? 4. Why are some people so overly obsessive its gross? welll..i guess i shouldnt be talking there lol but i mean so overly obsessive about YOU and your not about them! 5. Why cant you ever have that ONE person you really want? 6. Why do the people you lovee leave you..literally 7. Why cant YOU just stay off my mind so im just a little bit happier but then again... 8. Why cant you stay on my mind and comee back so im even happierr 9. Why?? Just why?? butt on a brighter note: 1. Why is American Idol such a good show orr better yet.. 1. Why is carrie sooOoo fucking hott LoL yayy american idol is onn hollerr x0x0 luvv me

(2 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [09 May 2005|09:00pm] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | weEzer --> bEveRly hiLLs* ] oKk so ive been extremely stressed out with skool lately..butt theres only ONE more AP exam left so im happpyyyy!!!!!! but of course this exam is going 2 suck soo ill postpone my happiness until 2maro after i take it =( lol i think ive been outta my house ONCE in 3 weeks to actually chill with sum1 and not worry about school...i needa a damn break already..barnes and nobles is like officially my 2nd home...andd im not thrilled to be saying that either. theres like 14 days left of skool..plus i still have like 6 absences left lol so its rele only 8 days left =P yayyness..thats exciting uhhh..im kinda talkin 2 sum1 again..butt DONT ASK who cuz everytime i tell sum1 about this kinda shit...everthing gets messed up..u kno wat kinda person i am when it comes 2 relationships lol ... or do u? hoLler im goin 2 eat dinnerr x0x0x peAce oUt <333

(2 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [22 Apr 2005|09:23pm] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | mAriAh caReYy - We belOnq 2gEthA ] yOneSs lol whats good people? im bored soo i decided 2 write here... well a few weeks ago, the 7th was my bday..and i went 2 dC cuz my bro lives there faSho. it was sOoo much funn and i took like a million pics but stupid me..i took pics of like mainly ONLY monuments that almost every1's seen already newayz lol that was retarded! i hung out with justin and jordan..funn stuff =P..and i went 2 the beach with justin and my back and the back of my legs got soo burnt..and now my back is peeling in one spot in a big circle lol weirD huh? i definitely got a LoT off my chest yesterdayy..but dontt EVERrrr ask how i did it..cuz i dont even kno lol.. yeAh jamie im talking 2 u lol i was supposed 2 chill with jared last week but never got 2..so i mite this week but probably not cuz nothing ever works out... im so streessed out cuz of APs..i dunno if i even care..do i want 2 pass? yes and no lol i dont wanna waste my time studying but i wanna pass so it looks good but w/e yall kno ill still study newayz so it dont matter if i say i care or if i say i dont all year i always want the school year 2 be over..but then when it gets close 2 being over..i dont want it 2 be over at all..i miss people cuz i never see ne1 durin the summer...andd im gonna miss all my seniorsssss =( i cant believe im gonna b a senior next year! woww thats outta control. then ima b cryin my ass off when next year ends lol duHhh omGgg....u kno that quote that says sumthin like dont be sad that its over be happy cuz it happened? lol i dunno if thats how it goes but basically thats it...im in love with that quote cuz its tru..but im still fuckin sadd so i hate the quote lol wtf! im so contradictory lol thats not a word is it? i think i have a speech problem..i dont know how 2 pronounce words nemore..i always get words mixed up and everytime i talk 2 sum1 i stutter cuz im like scared or sumthin...grrr i got major problems ok im done talkin sry =) x0x0

(2 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [04 Apr 2005|07:50pm] [ mood | I HAVE A HEADACHE =( ] [ music | mARtinA mcBriDE - iNdePenDeNce dAYy ] what it is hoe soooo....all i can really say is....my life is now complete....well at least for the most part lol.. i dont think ive been THIS happy in a long time..i mean yea ive been pretty happy lately...but this doesnt even compare =P other than that skools alrite..im scUrred 4 AP exams cause of course i dont kno nething from all year..but thats okk cuz me and my lover serra are studying every sunday til our exams i think and hope cuz i rele wanna do good lol basketballs over which sucks cuz i needa stay in shape..but i think im joinin a gym which is hotttness cuz ima have a sexii body fasHo haha ok well summerland is hott and i need 2 watch my sexii bitch - - > JESSEEEEEE MUTHERFUCKIN MCCARTNEY....gawddd hes freakin gorgeous!!! peaceeeee out biitches

(5 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [23 Mar 2005|12:58am] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | boBby vAleNtiNo : slOw doWn ] whOops...long time no write lol definitely my badd holler....its spring break bitches!!! well so far break has been amazinggg..never had so much fun in my life lol i spent a lot of time with my bro who came down from UCF...but now hes gone and ive been spendin a lot of time withh my bestest friendddd .. duhh thats brittany lol well 2 start off...i dyed brits hair a darkkk ass brown..lol it was supposed 2 come out this rele pretty natural brown..but it dyed soo dark into her head that it looks blackk..and me and jill accidentally missed a lot of spots soo she kinda looks like a tigerr.. lol grRr! =P ....i also went with her 2 get her hair cut andd we saw gabe sousa outside hehe yummyyy! ive been goin 2 th beach alot tooo...that place is sum fun shit.. i went with jp and brit 2 the beach and jp was messin around callin guys over 4 brit..even tho theyre goin out lol...so we called this kid over and it turns out hes like 15 and in 9th grade and he was busted as fuckk..not even baby cute..but he chilled with us for a while then we called this other kid over..he was 18..and he was even more busted lol what luck rite?? thenn jp got under a big towel and me and brit thew chips onto him and all these birds..there mustve been like 50.. no joke..came flying on top of him lol and then i went under the blanket and the birds did the same 2 me haha..woww it was soo funny lol i guess u hadda b there??? o well...2nite i went 2 las olas..it was funn shit..kinda i dunno long storyy... i also hung out with sum other people...lol umm yea ill xplain that later..and nething else u wanna kno bout these past couple of days jus ask me about cuz theres 2 much... oKk have u ever like sum1 andd u were literally obsessed with them..then u started becomin close with that person and as time passed by u moved on but u still had feelings 4 that person in the very back of ur head..thenn much laterr u start becomin close with that person again and u want them reallll bad AGAIN?? omgg thats totally how i feel and it sucks..cuz this is what made me so depressed like last yr and 9th gradee..but then like i said imoved on and i was happy cuz i didnt care...and noww i definitely feel like that again and this cant be good cuz i dont like when im depressed..i hatee it =( andd i miss sUm1 a lot .. which doesnt help with my saddness cuz i dont ever get 2 c this person and we were really close..jus 2 think how shit changes well i cant wait 4 2maro i get 2 c my hottie - - > yess jamie thats u lol t2u all lata...even tho no1 reads this now except 4 jamie probably lol o well peaceee </3

(5 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [26 Feb 2005|11:56am] [ mood | blah ] guYzz aRee pRiCks....foR reaL.. and im not just sayin that becuz i cant get one...but ive been hurt 2 many times that i dont want one nemore...like i told jamie...im now a lesbian (defffinitely a joke..remember that! =P lol)

(3 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [07 Feb 2005|04:25pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | bAbii bAsh feAt aKoN _ i'M baCkk ] hoLLerr... whats goin on?? nuttin 2 much here...im bored and for once i dont have ne homework..or at least i think i dont. well its been a while since ive updated...lifes been good...except for the past week..cuz i have pMs lol..but other then that im really positive and nothings been bothering mee! yayyy lol well as u all probably figured would happen..me and brit r friends again =) ...andd me and jared dont talk that much nemore lol...of course that always happens butt thats not a new discovery either..but it doesnt bother me THAT much...soo dont worry bout it lol... schools been gettin kinda easier..but mayb i shouldnt b sayin that cuz itll jinx everything..soo um yea skools hard lol...i canttt wait til spring break bitchesss! its gonna b so much fun..i mite go 2 washington dc 2 see my brother and look at colleges and other funn shitt like that we have districts this thursday 4 bball..i think against douglas...were gonna kick their asses fashoo! we killed em twice..y not once more?? i really want the season 2 end cuz of the coaching and everything like that..but i dont cuz of the people...im soo gladd that i stayed on the team this yr..i got reallly close with people on the team who we hated each other 2 yrs ago..so thats str8 tooo.. well im bored and i got nuthin 2 do sooo im ouTt... peAcee...(im now a certified gangsta since i got my hair brizaided lol) oo hey jamie..i got onee -- "Let your fingers do the walking"...in my pants =P haAha thats so freakin funny

(1 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [16 Jan 2005|07:28pm] [ mood | sad ] [ music | jeSse mCcaRtnEy - - *beCaUse yOo LivE ] hii every1.. things have been ok...me and brit still arent talkin..wat else is new? she doesnt wanna b friends with me just cuz we got in a stupid fite....yeea i miss her a lottt..but if all shes gonna care about is her bf then w/e it doesnt bother me... soo i met this kid -- jared at the bowling ally last weekend...thanks 2 ally cuz she brought him =) ur the bestest lol...and weve been texting each other a lot and we talk on the fone and last nite me him jamie and adam all chilled...we went 2 wendys then we came back 2 my house...i had funn....hes suchh a funny kid and hes reallly sweet..and i think he got brownie points from my parents for helping my dad set up the TV in my house....soo thats whats actually good in my life now.. school still sucks rele bad i cant believe it started again i was havin a lot of funs..and hangin out with people i havent got 2 hang out with in a longgg ass time... well theres a party 2nite and i was gonna go with jared..but he got in a fite with his mommm...so now he cant go and im sad =( lol i duno if im even gonna go cuz i dont even kno whos goin andd im sure itll suck..but ill prolly stop by for like an hr cuz its in my neighborhood i guess im gonna go get ready 4 that now....ill t2u all laterrr x0x0x0 byee btww...mandyyyy i miss u not bein in my 6th hr lol..... but seriously we NEEDAA chill...we keep saying we will but we never do!

(let the rain fall down) [31 Dec 2004|01:43am] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | jeSse mCcaRtnEy // *beAuTiFuL sOuL~ ] wowzerzzz lol...i havent updated in like 4 everrr...i kinda am starting 2 hate this thing and now i remember why i stopped writing in the first place...its a waste of time..and only like 2 people read it and blahhh...but whatever ill keep updating when im in the mood cuz its kinda cool 2 look back and see how big of a dork i was...but ill probably still be a big dork so it doesnt rele matter... umm yeaa so breakk has been amazing so far..well sorta lol...well ive slept over brits house like 3 times already..chilled with my lover jamie...saw paul once...andd i definitely dont rele remember that much...so ill try my best 2 fill u in... on wed..the last day..me serra, her bro, and her bros friends snuck into ramblewood..but then we got kicked out...so we tried 2 get a visitors pass but they kicked us out 2...thenn when we were walkin outt the door we saw all our teachers standing by the exit so we were happy we got 2 c themm holler lol.... i saw meet the fockers and darkness...meet the fockers was pretty good..it was soo funny i loveedd it....darkness suckked major dicks..it was such a bad movie...it was made out 2 b so much more than it rele was...and the ending definitely sucked...DONT SEE ITT..its a waste of money..... what pisses me off the most is...i got used 2 the fact that me and brit will never chill alone...i mean always being with JP every minute of the day...but the fact that they like privately hook up in front of me and jill pisses the fuck outta me...and its not just once..its like alwaysss ...grrrr i cant stand it... i had a bball tourny in okeechobee..i drove up the 1st day with brittany and tina and jill in brits moms car...we won our 1st game...of course i didnt play even tho we were up by like 15...then we drove him with brits uncle, went 2 cracker barrel, and i slept over brits house...then the next day we drove back up with brit jp and brits uncle and we were losing by like 30 cuz every1 was arguin with each other and the coach was putting every1 down so we couldnt play like a team...well..we were down by 30 and every1 played but me.. so in thee 3rd quarter...my coach came over 2 me and was like i wish i could put u in but u dont hav the skills 2 play with these kinda girls..ur not on their level..so brit was next 2 me and she was like well u dont c ne1 else doing nething in there do u?? so he puts me in on his stupid asss pity and i actually did good and he NEW it..but he doesnt trust ne1 i fuckin hate him...he thinks i fuckin suck but thats definitely not tru..yea i may not be the star player...but i definitely have skills and he just looks rite past shit...i hate him with a passion...grrrrrrrr lol... well now im bored and dont kno wat 2 say so im outtieee...x0x0 goodnite

(2 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [11 Dec 2004|12:56pm] [ mood | aggravated ] [ music | MaRio // *LetT meE loVe yOu` ] my life is a nightmare from fukin hell..things rele dont like 2 change in my life..it just likes 2 make me miserable well i kinda tried 2 block out every recent thing thats happened..cuz i dont think anythings been good..xcept getting presents for chanukkah...so far i got a shirt, perfume and pajama pants from hollister, 2 pairs of earrings..i dunno if i like them tho..we'll see...andd i also got new bed sheets cuz i guess thats a start on redoing my room... butt unfortunately no matter how great my gifts mightve been...chanukkah fuckin sucked...it started tuesday night...and 1st off..that was the nite i had a bball game...well we won that..and my coach actually let me play and he said i did good 4 once...then i came home and this is where more shit in my life had 2 begin...everr since that night my mom has done nothing but start shit with me and make me pissed off....every time we talk we get into an argument and we get even madder at each other... thenn wed i dont remember wat happened but im sure that day sucked 2...and then thursday i had another bball game at coconut creek....o mannn it was amazing! we were beatin them by 10 at halftime andd we were so xcited and pumped up that we were gonna win..but by the 4th quarter they caught up 2 us and were beating us by 3 pts...and at the last 2 seconds of the game brittany shot a 3 pter from like half court and shee tied the game..then we balled them up during overtime!! wooooo it was soo great...and i also had a game last nite..friday...against springs...it was also a very xciting game..and we beat them by 4 pts..hollerr..were actually coming 2gether 2 work as a team now..no matter how much we struggle..i like it thenn after my game i went out 2 dinner with my parents which was a hugeee mistake the whole time all me and my mom did was fukin argue...ughh u rele dont understand..its like we cant say a word 2 each other without pissing each other off....so i told her not 2 talk 2 meand she got madd when i said that..i meann if ur gonna get madd at me when i do talk 2 u andd if ur gonna get madd at me for not talking 2 u..then what the fuckkkk is the point of talkin? i just get sooo frustrated cuz of her..grrrr..i wanted 2 beat the shit outta her last nite...she got so fukin madd at me that - becuz she started shit and i went along with it - that she wouldnt even let me go out with my biotchhh jamie...soo that sucked assss this mornin i woke up at 6:15..went 2 bball...and got home at 9...and then i fell back asleep til 12:30..and i was supposed 2 have a fukin pedicure cuz my toes r soo disgusting butt since my mo was pissed at me she wouldnt fukin take me..so now im even madder as fuck..i feel like sitting in a little bubble this weekend and doing nothing...maybe i should start studying my ass off so i fukin make my mom proud of me cuz she cant seem 2 b proud of nething rite now...her job is making her stressed out..then she takes all that stress out on me ...fuck that shit well i have jamies party 2nite...andd i dunno 4 sum reason im not as xcited cuz my mom ruined my whole damn weekend..its not that im not xcited 2 go..im just not excited 2 do nething this weekend...like im not even fukin xcited 2 go 2 the jingle ball concert...thats fukin odd aint it? yeaaa well im out...sryy my entries jus keep gettin more depressed and obnoxious than the last....wellll dont fukin read it if u dont fukin care...lol im so nice.... ~mee

(2 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [08 Dec 2004|09:25pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | maroon 5 - sundayy morning ] 10 Bands/Singers you've been listening a lot to lately: 1. Rascal Flatts 2. Eminem 3. 50 cent 4. LiL jOn n the east side boyz 5. Simple Plan 6. Usher 7. Ludacris 8. Maroon 5 9. Snoop Dogg 10. T.I. 9 Things you look forward to: 1. WINTER BREAK BABYYY!!!!!! 2. Getting my own car! 3. The weekends 4. Having my parents out of the house 5. Being with friends 6. Partyingggg! 7. Getting A's 8. The days when im actually happy lol 9. Basketball used 2 be... 8 Things you like to wear: 1. Basketball shorts 2. Baggy shirts (sometimes so i dont sweat as much lol) 3. Jeans 4. HoLLisTer shirts! 5. Sweatshirts hahahh 6. Soffees and a Tank Top 7. Sports Bras 8. Anything thatsssss comfortablee 7 Things that anger you: 1. My parents 2. Most teachers/School 3. Basketball..or the people and the coach actually 4. Backstabbers 5. People who talk shit 6. People who dont kno how to walk in the halls 7. Life 6 Things you say most days: 1. Hottness! 2. Holler 3. Definitely not 4. O man 5. Fo Sho 6. WhaT a Dork 5 Things you do everyday: 1. Eattt..a lot 2. Play basketball 3. Go on the internet 4. Listen 2 Music 5. Talk on the fonee 4 People you want to spend more time with: 1. JAMIE my fuckin lover! 2. josiee..i miss my real lesbian lover lol 3. paul..we USED 2 b besttt friends..shit happens 4. myself sometimees lol 3 Movies you could watch over and over again: 1. Bruce Almighty 2. anything with hilary duff cuz shes fukin hott =) 3. Princess Diaries 2 Of your favorite songs at the moment: 1. MaRio - Let mE lOve YoU 2. snOOp doGg - dRop itt liKe iTs hoTtt 1 person you could spend the rest of your life with: 1. hmm..ill keep my mouth shut 4 this 1 NUMBER OF: - height: 5'1" - shoe size: 7.5 - hair color: dirty blonde - siblings: 2 bRotHerz LAST: - movie you rented: i was supposed 2 rent the fish that saved pittsburgh butt i hated bball 2 much 2 do it at the time lol - movie you bought: ..its more like burnt - song you listened to: Let mE lOve You - song that was stuck in your head: Let me Take You HomE - person you've called: my mom... - person that's called you: Brittany - show you've watched: ...CSI 4 Forensics class...o wait..a show that i ACTUALLY watchedd? - person you were thinking of: ..brittany..cuz i just wrote her name b4 lol DO: - you have a crush on someone: ughhh guys fuckin suck i hate em all - you wish you could live somewhere else: definitelyy - you believe in online dating: no way..that shit dont work - others find you attractive: yeaa..ok - you want more piercings: yesss.. i want a belly button ring already - you like cleaning: definitely not -you write in cursive or print: either FAVORITE: - food: pizzaaa - thing to do: chill - thing to talk about: anything - drinks: coke - movies: i dunoo.. - holiday: hanukkahh HAVE YOU: - ever cried over a girl: ...huh? lol - ever cried over a boy: yeeea - ever been in a fist fight: if gettin in 1 with my brother counts - ever been arrested: nopee WHAT - shampoo do you use: Herbal Essence - are you scared of: losing the people i lovee - number of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends: i dont even kno..right now id have 2 say just 2 - number of people I consider my enemies: haha lets not go there FAVORITE: - disney movie: ?? i dunoo - word: hottness - nickname: Jules - eye color: bluee - flower: pink rose? DO YOU THINK YOU ARE: - pretty: definitely nott - funny: sometimes.. - hot: noo way - friendly: sometimes...but im shyyy 2 - ugly: yes =) lol - loveable: of coursee - sweet: suree - dorky: i definitelyyyy am lol

(3 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [29 Nov 2004|05:01pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | siMpLe pLan - sHut upppp ] ive been wayy 2 fuckin busy and pissed 2 rite in thie shit...i dont kno how 2 let my anger out in here so i cant even try 2 write in it when im mad...but now im fuckin pissed again and i thought id try lol i didnt go 2 skool 2day becuz i had 4 fuckin tests 2 study 4 this weekend and i never rele got a chance 2 cuz my bros came down and then i hadda work and all this shit happened and i never had time 2 do nething...soo last nite i tried 2 stay up as late as i could studying for all my tests and i stayed up til like 2 thinking that my mom wouldnt let me go 2 skool with only 4 hrs of sleep and still not finished studying....soo this morning i woke up and pissed my mom off by tellin her i wasnt goin 2 skool...we argued for like 10 min and im like i didnt finish reading the history chapter i dont understand my math or physics and forensics she gave us a review sheet that we never even learned half of this shyt and i only got 4 hrs of sleep so im not goin 2 skool so i slammed her door and fell back asleep... thennn she wakes me up at like 10 and yells at me 2 start studying..so i start reading my history chapter and i wanna actually earn an A by myself soo i read the whole chapter in like 3 hrs and took notes and everything...then i called my bro 2 come over 2 tutor me for physics and math..and its 5 PM and he still hasnt come...i got the review notes 4 forensics..it turned out that i didnt have a forensics or physics test 2day but i still woulda failed math and history if i went.... i have bball 2nite at 7-9 and a game 2maro..and if u dont go 2 the practice the nite b4 the game thenn u cant play in the game...my mom wont let me go 2 practice cuz she said i missed skool 2 study i can stay home from practice and study 2...soo i FUCKINGGGGGGG cant go 2 practice and she doesnt give a shit if i dont play in my game or not and grrrrrrrrrr u have NO idea how much anger i fuckin have in me rite now i could fuckin beat the shit out of sum1....dont mess with me rite now well my weekend was ok...last tuesday we won our game against northeast...i stayed home from skool on wed & my bro drove down from UCf and we went 2 breakfast then i came home and took a nap and went 2 bball...then thursday i just hung out all day with my bros...then friday i chilled with brit and jill and jP at nite wooooo it was funness =P....then i got home at 1 from her house..and i hadda wake up at 6 for bball practice on sat morning...i got home from that and fell back asleep then my mom came home from work and me her and my bro went 2 the boca mall and then out 2 dinner...i got home at 11 and i was soooo pissed cuz i was supposed 2 chill wit josie that nite but i got home 2 late and every fuckin time im supposed 2 chill with her sumthin happens...geeeze i havent seen her in literally 6 fuckin months this suckss..then sunday i worked and went out 2 dinner and yea u kno the rest from there.... well noowww i dont kno what 2 do..im soooo mad and bball is in 2 hrs andi havent called my coach cuz i dont kno wat 2 say and i wish my mom wasnt a fucking ass bitch like she is..but no thats how she is ughhhh....i cant stand this nemore i wanna move out..so many things make me unhappy i definitely have depression and i fuckin hate everything i cant stand my life

(2 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [11 Nov 2004|10:46pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | sUm1 buYy mE RasCaL flaTts tiCkeTs PLEASE! ] wow what an eventful few daysss...i fuckin hate skool..i hate people..every1s so fake..i hate basketball..what else is neww im doin even worse than last quarter..i have like 2 a's, 2 b's 2 c's and a D...wow thats just great aint it?? i REALLY wish i took dual enrollment..butt noo i never like listenin 2 my mom..this is why its so hard 4 me 2 make decisions..cuz when i do make my own..look wat happens...yess everything gets fucked up..but the good news is....im gettin switched out of physics!! (hopefully lol)...ahhh ive been waitin for this day for like....a long time lol..i cant stand this class..its like 10 times harder than AP calculus,..is that normal?? nopee not normal at all.. basketball can suck a dick...practically every1 is the biggest fukin bitch ever i cant stand goin 2 practice..thats y i liked JV so much..every1 sucked except like me and a few people so i felt like a leader...now im with people who are like abillion times better than me..and if i do sumthin rong..they like laugh at me or make me feel like shit...i bought new bball shoes and i get into the gym and every1s like omgg i love ur shoes julie whered u get them blah blah..and then brittany (not my brit lol) says out loud so i can hear but not 2 my face..our team color is navy blue and white...not royal blue and white..meanwhile shes sittin there fukin wearin ROYAL BLUE AND WHITE BBALL SNEAKERs...then the wholeee practice she jus kept grillin me and starin at my shoes...wtf r u jealous bitch?? good =) lol ughh it pisses me off..then i kno 4 a fact every1 talks shit behind every1s back..geeze u dont kno how much i hate ittt i got in a car accident 2day..long story dont feel like explainn it..ive explained it to like 50 million people..so if u REALLLLY wanna kno..IM me and ill possibly tell u if im in the mood 2 type lol...but im ok..thats all that matters aint it?? i duno if i wrote bout this..but last week i hurt my leg rele bad in practice..and ever since i havent rested it soo its gotten worse and i could possibly have a stress fracture..thenn ive been restin it..and 2day i left practice and me and brit went out the side doors of the gym and it was pitch blackk and we start walkin towards the gates..and guess what..theyre locked lol... we couldnt go backk so we decided 2 jump it so i went 1st and i jumped ovver and landed on my freakin leg...wow thats great..now it hurts like a mother efferr.. well im madd tired and it blows that theres skool 2maro...but TGIF lol x0x0x <3 mee

(5 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [07 Nov 2004|07:42pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | LiL jOn & tHe eAst siDe boyZ // wHat yOu gOn' dO ] grrr..my weekend sucked soo bad.. well friday it turned out that brit wasnt mad at me..she was just stressed out...so me her and jill went 2 dinner at roadhouse..then we met up with hugo and coco? lol i dunno if thats how u spell it but w/e...we drove all the way 2 copans road 2 meet these other people..it was sooo fuckin gay..and we were supposed 2 go 2 a party or sumthin..but by the time all his friends were ready it was like 12..and i had 2 b home in an hr..so im just like ya kno wat drop me off at home..i felt bad cuz we were so far away..but it wasnt my fault...or actually..i guess everythings my fault lol.. yesterday morning i woke up 2 go 2 bball..i dont kno y but i dont like basketball as much as i used 2...come 2 think of it..i dont like a lot of things as much as i used 2..thats not a good sign..thats a symptom of sumthin...maybe depression?? haha...well after practice i got my toenails done. holler..theyre hott pink and hottness lol...then i went 2 the broward mall 2 buy bball shoes...and i stopped in hollister... dont u hate how u go out and ur lookin like shit (cuz in my case i was in my bball clothes with my hair all messed up and shit)...and ur at a mall and u see rele hot guys checkin u out..then YOU look around and see all these pretty girls in cute clothes and are like wtf...that pisses me off.annd thats what happened 2 me..everytime i go out i look like shit and i always see hott guys and im like wats the point lol..but then even when i do look good no1 even bothers lookin at me...arent i such a positive person?? then last nite i went 2 this kids party with paul and other people and my freakin cuzin was there..it was rele weird..and the party was gay...then we went 2 adams house cuz he was havin a party...and we watched the girl next door..thats a hott movie lol... 2day i got tutored for math..and then went 2 pauls house..and drove around with him 2 other peoples houses..it was funness...and now i have the worst headache and i need 2 do the take home test 4 mckinley =( this blows..im soo depressed its not even funny lol...w/e im out x0x byeee <3 Julie `*

(2 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [05 Nov 2004|06:32pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | RasCaL flaTtS // * tHen I diD `' ] well this week actually wasnt badd at all..thats a first...except 2day suckedd kinda rele bad lol.. i see brit at lunch and she tells me she quit basketball..and then i find out like all this shit that she never told me...howw the fuckk can she get mad at me 4 not tellin her shit when she cant tell me nethin?? wtf y do i put up with this?? no1 answer that question lol...its just that im such a forgiving person i cant help it...and shes obviously my best friend...so u just gotta forgive and forget and put things in the past..but just the fact that she continually does this pisses the fuck outta me. after skool i see tina.. and we started walkin 2 bball practice..and normally i meet brit so we both go 2gether but she told me she quit so i didnt even bother..so tina said sumthin like is brit comin 2day? and im like no i dont think shes playin nemore..so tinas like yea rite and she didnt believe me...so im just like no im serious i dunno if she is...then brit calls and asks me if she should play and i was like umm..yea lol...so she asked where i should meet her...andd so i said 2 tina o im jk im meetin brit now i guess shes playin....soooo me and brit get up 2 the locker room and katherine brady is like brit i thought u quit bball...so brits like who the hell did u hear that from? thats not tru...and all this shit happened and she looked me at right away cuz i was the only person that knew...so im just like i only told tina but thats not even what i told her... so then we went in to change and.. after we changed im like will u listen 2 wat happened? and she like didnt answer me...so im like wtf u never wanna listen 2 my side of the story and wat i have 2 say..like she just always assumes that i fuck up...she didnt let me tell her the story andd we didnt talk the rest of the time...grrrrr ya kno wat..even tho it may have slipped when i said it 2 tina...if brit didnt want me 2 say nething she couldve said dont say nething 2 ne1..lol its that simple....i just dont get it..if i always do and say the wrong thing yy does she still wanna b friends with me?? i give up with life...everythings wayy 2 complicated.. of course im doin nothin 2nite..im like not in the mood 2 talk 2 ne1 or nething...i always chill with brit every weekend..but things have totally changed..i dunno whats happened..i just want things back 2 the way they used 2 be..where we never fought...we did fun shit..and JP wasnt in the picture to change brit and my relationship...im sry i sound obsessive ab out brit lol..but it just hurts 2 kno that this shit happens soo often and things used 2 be so great until Jp came along...y doess this always happen 2 me......K im done talkin about that lol well...i need a fuckin guy...im HONESTLY starting 2 give up and want a girl lol..like im so desperate u have no idea..this blows...life sucks..whats the point of livinggggg...i hate evrythingggg

(10 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [31 Oct 2004|11:56am] [ mood | frustrated ] [ music | hoObaStanK_diSaPpeAr ] heyy heyy... this weekend was alrite...friday i went 2 the halloween bingo thingy at riverside and i met this kid brandon..whos friends with 1 of my close friends eric...well brandon is freakin obsessed with me..but hes soo immature about it..i dunno i cant xplain it unless u c him...andd i still dont kno if hes in 9th or 10th grade..he told me he was in 10th and alll his friends told me he was in 9th..soo wtf which 1 is it?? and him and eric have been buggin me 2 chill with them all weekend and go 2 a party and trick or treating butt i dunno..i mite go trick or treatin with them 2nite but i didnt go 2 the party with them lol...then after i dropped them off at home..i drove around with jamie and adam..and we went 2 bryans party..then we left to go 2 alons party for a little bit and when we left there...every1 left bryans house... soo we went 2 pick up stephen at skool...and then we drove 2 bryans moms house 2 pick him up andd we were gonna meet paul 4 dinner but we drove around so much that it was 2 late 2 do nething afterr.. then saturday i got in a huge fite with my mom..and me my mom and my aunt all went shopping at the boca mall..but i was soo not in the mood...i wanted 2 fukin kill ne1 that talked 2 me...then saturday nite was emily b-day party at mykonos...it was soo much funn...we all ate and the bill for 10 people was 190 dollars lol it was craZzy..but sooo good...and at the end of dinner..theres like a tradition thing where u break plates...and the waiter threw the plate ont he ground and a piece of glass went into my leg..it hurt soo fukin badd and i was bleedin and all that good shyt lol..but w/e im ok now...then after we all got up and danced on the tables and counters and all thes pedofiles were just staring at all of us lol it was freakin scary but a lot of funn i dontt kno wtf brittanys problem is...shes such a fukin bitch 2 me lately..and ya kno wat? im not gonna take her shit nemore...i dont care if she jokes about nething or not...im not gonna let her treat me the way she does..im sick of it...i start tellin her a story and she basically tells me im a fukin idiot..and she acts like shes wayy to good 4 me nemore...wtf people have major fukin problems well im out i needa study 4 psych and forensics so i can go trick or treatin 2nite..oo yayy funness...happpy halloweenn every1! x0x0x0

(6 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [26 Oct 2004|03:21pm] [ mood | cranky ] [ music | PitbuLL - *`dAmMit mAn~ ] holller what is up people?? i just did bad on an american history test lol...a lot of people got caught a few hrs b4 mine andd so i was 2 scared 2 use the cheat sheet that i had lol..but i did have my pre written essay sooo that was alll good =) 2day was kinda gayy haha that rhmyed lol o mann...soo yea i get my period and i have THE worst cramps and i even took something 4 it but noo nothing everr works...i lost my voice all morning so i couldnt talk 2 ne1 lol then it cam back during 5th hr...wtf is goin on with me? am i sick or not?? lol this past weekend was amazinglyyy funn...1st friday nite at roadhouse...ahh! the best time! me brit and jill ate and took pictures all nite lol then we chilled with jp and drove 2 nicks house and chilled with him and tom...and my mom finally raised my curfew! score like a whore!! now i can stay out til like 1...well i guess thats when shes in a good mood lol..then saturday i slept over brits house..wooo that nite was fuked up lol..things sucked at first but it turned out 2 b a relee funn nite..besides me breaking shit =( lol i feel soo bad...well that nite i went 2 bed at 4:30 and i only had like 4hrs of sleep..then we went 2 the mall for like an hr and drove 2 the beach 2 relax..it was hott shit..and i almost got raped at the beach! this guy came up 2 me and brit while we were alone and hes like hey guys come back 2 my place so we can have amassive orgyy! its gonna b so much fun please..a massive orgy! and he just kept screaming the words massive orgy!! omggg im scarred 4 life..like seriously that was the scariest thing thats EVER happened 2 me lol but im still hurrr so im oK =) yesterday we ran sooo freakin much in basketball i had 2 run first 90 seconds up the stairs nonstop and then 120 seconds nonstop cuz me and brit got there late lol..then we ran like 30 times up and down the court cuz every 1 kept missing their foul shots..it was terrible! but w/e i want musclesss in my legs biotch! k im goin 2 eat...lol wat else do u do when u have ur period?? =P peaceee out <33

(3 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [21 Oct 2004|08:00pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | Ja RuLe & R KeLLy - wOndErfuL ] whooops my badd...i havent written in a while lol... well i think yesterday was the 1st good day i had in a while..thats a record aint it?? thenn when it finally gets better..of course shyt just ends up gettin worse again...i think im gettin sick =( ..i woke up this morning with a sore throat and a nasal thingy lol i was just really stuffed up..i got 2 skool and i started crying in serras lap lol..i was miserablere what can i say! if yall dont kno...me david AND ryan are alllll through...and that is whyyy i am now a lesbian...on the weekends with ally...and everyday with jamie =) haAh...no seriiously tho..i reallly give up with guys!! either we get really close and he becomes an asshole..or we get really close and i start 2 think hes annoying lol andd all ne1 ever wants is just play..i want a fukin real relationship.. but that aint happenin cuZz im never gonna find anyyone...EVERRRR lol o btw..on my report card i ended up with 2 A's, a B+, and 4 B's...theyre not my type of grades..but w/e i rele dont care nemore..theres nuthin i can do about it except regret being a fukin moron well last weekend...homecoming weekend...was alottta funn =)...1st on thursday..the football game...adam and jamie came over and i wasnt readyy so jamie came in and helped me and even changed her outfit..and adam got sick of waiting so he left us there...sooo i decided 2 drive..and we had NO idea where we were going..but luckily..on our lost way there lol...we saw a JPT PRIDE jeep that was drivin 2 the game..so we started followin them..but they were goin like 80 soo yea we kinda got lost lol..butt thaas ok cuz we made it there alll good thenn me and jamie found 10 dollars on the ground! woooo that was great lol..the game was alrite...we left early and went 2 bryans partyyyyy hollerrr. it was actually kinda fukin gay cuz every1 was beyond fuked up anddd no it they just werent cool... then fridayy was homecoming night..of course i wasnt goin with david nemore and im real glad lol...but me jamie chantal adam and then stephen eric and erica all wentt 2 the beach til like 12:30 or sumthin i dunoo...but it was a lotttta funn...10x better then homecoming prolly was...even tho we DID miss the 2 guys kiss! aww man jamie lol at basketball this week on tuesday montimurro slammed into my shoulder andd hurt me sooo baddd..and i kinda already have a bad shoulder so hes like omggg julie im so sorry blah blah blah lol..but noww i still rele cant move my shoulder..it hurts like a motherr and its bruised real bad o well i have a feelin that ima wake up real sick 2maro and not b able 2 do NETHING this weekend..the 1 weekend where jP is workin and i can hang out with JUST brit lol...then where im able 2 sleep over brits and where i dont have that much HW..and all this good shyt..of course that always happens lol well i gotta go study and do a project...grrrr thank gawwwd 2maros fridayy! <3 JuLeZ

(let the rain fall down) [12 Oct 2004|04:40pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | hiLaRy dUfF - aNywhEre bUt heRe ] okk the past few weeks have been so miserable 4 me..i dont kno wats goin on..i think i have a case of depression lol...well last nite was the worst...i was hysterically cryin on the fone with paul for like 20 minutes. everything was just making me so upset andd i had the worst migrane EVERRRR...i found out that i had a D in my english class and that was supposed 2 b our final grade or w/e...soo my mommy called the skool cuz i think the last time i checked...d's werent good! lol...my teacher was freakin counting practice sat tests for a grade..and sum1 like me whos such a horrible test taker obviously is gonna fail these tests...so i did fail both of them..but since my mom called my fukin asshole teacher changed it so we got a grade for "doing" it lol....wooo i feel much better about that i also forgot 2 do my english project cuz she gives us like 10 assignments at 1 time and never mentions them again and i never kno when theyre do! so i got an F for that shyt...now my grades like a C+..wow cuz thats much better lol... over the weekend me and brittany got in a hugee fight..i was over her house and i was soo mad at her that i didnt talk 2 her the whole night..i did however stay at her house lol..so i kinda chilled with jill all night...we all went 2 the beach andd chilled it was alrite..but i wrote a whole note 2 brit tellin her how i felt andd i dunoo if its gone thru her head yet lol i neeeda do my psych project already! im goin into an elementary skool 2maro and im gonna b up alll night typing my report and this sucks..i ALWAYS wait til the last minute..but i definitely learned my lesson cuz all my grades suckkk this quarter andd i wanna do 10x better next quarter..ima work my ass off...prolly not but ya kno lol i dunno whats goin on with me and ryan...when he talks 2 me online he acts like hes soo interested in me and he wants me 2 b interested in him...then when i see him in skool he waves hi and keeps walking like he cant even stop 2 talk or give me a hug or nothing lol...2day b4 skool i saw him andd i was standing there talkin 2 serra and he looked at me waved and walked into his class...the 2nd bell hadnt even rung yet lol wtf! i dont kno what i should doo...i feel like he likes a whole bunch of girls and hes just tryyin 2 c which 1 he would like better by leading us all on or sumthin...fuck this shit i dont care nemore i have psats 2maro..that sucks real bad..and i have bball soon..and im tired and bored and prolly have alot of hw sooo immmmm going....byeeee

(1 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [05 Oct 2004|03:20pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | keVin lyTtLe - sHe dRivEs mE craZzy ] 2 muchh shyt has happened lately... 1st off..guy drama lol o man...in the situation im in..i kno 2 hearts r gonna b broken..and one of those will prolly b mine..but i still dont care and im willin 2 risk that...but wats the easiest way 2 break the other guys heart?? lol im stil workin on that andd i dont think i have the balls 2 do it.. well im not going 2 homecoming nemore..and it seemed like david was ok with it..but i mean wat was he gonna do cry? exactly..so im sure he was upset butt hell get over it..theres 1 thing hell get over haAh this past weekend was okk..friday i went out 2 dinner at big bear i think lol i dont remember andd i ate a whole brownie sunday it was freakin huge! i feel like a fat mother eFfer lol..then sat was kinda gay..brit and jill picked me up frum my house at like 9:30 and jp was in the car and brit and him sat in the back and i sat up front wit jill andd we drove around 4 hrs andd no1 talked like at all then we get back 2 brits and brit and jp leave for like 45 min..thats just nice isnt lol..so me and jill had fun talkin...we drove 2 this rele scary park and there was a car parked there...andd this girl was givin this kid head lol soo as we were leavin we flashed the brights on them haha it was sooo funny well im bored and tired and i dont think i have that much hw 2nite..thats a first...soo im going x0x0x0 byee

(4 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [30 Sep 2004|08:54pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | hiLaRy duFf - nOw yOu knOw ] omgg 2day was just another suckyy day..1st hr was soo horrible..we had 2 do this crime scene lab (the class is forensics) andd groups of 4 went into a storage closet in room 521 and there were like fake bloody footprints, and fake blood, and a fake knife on the floor and we hadda do all this shyt..and the people i went in them room with allll they did was argue i prolly failed that cuz no1 knew wat the hell they were doin... i do not understand math at all..i missed the 1st lesson cuz i was makin up the test soo i have no idea wuts goin on. i alsoo have NO idea whats goin on in physics! and i have a fricken test 2maro im TOTALLY gonna fail im so screwed what do i do?!?! psychology sucks now cuz i got moved 2 the front of my freakin class and my teacher like despises me 4 no reason at all..now i dont sit by jamie andd i cant cheat on ne tests cuz im all by myself in front of the teacher grrr..but its ok cuz me and jamie are even louder than b4 so we can piss the fuck out of our teacher hahah thats great lol im having 2nd thoughts about going 2 homecoming...well i kno david likes me...but im just not sure if he asked me because cuz that was like 'the thing 2 do' orr cuz he REALLY wanted 2 go...i mean if he just asked me cuz its sumthin u ask a girl u like 2 go 2 thenn i think it would b stupid 2 go..cuz im not in the mood 2 pick out a dress and shoes and all that good shyt considerin i can never find nethin that fits me cuz of my size lol i came home frum skool and had a splitting headache so i fell asleep and david wanted 2 hang out butt i did not feel well at all soo were gonna chill 2maro =) i hope this weekend goes good cuz i dunno if brit still wants 2 hang out or w/e lol ill prolly b sittin on my ass all nite evry nite..but w/e i guess thatll give me time 2 study 4 american so i can get an A! lol well i g2g study 4 physics but theres rele no point soo i dunno why i am lol peacce out x0x0x

(2 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [29 Sep 2004|03:59pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | gReeN daYy - aMeriCan idiOt ] well yesterday i didnt go 2 skool and i stayed home and studied 4 psych...the infos actually not that bad its jus soo hard 2 memorize everything thats in 30 pages worth of reading lol at like 5:30 i went with emily 2 the mall 2 get boxes 2 put brit and jills gift in lol then i went 2 eckerds 2 buy them cards..omggg its soo hard 2 pick out a card u like! that took like 25 min 2 pick out 2 cards lol...then i get into my car and i just call brit 2 c if shed even answer her fone...well she did anddd i wished her a happy bday and asked her if i could come over after practice...shes like "yea and uh i guess u can stay 4 cake" so i just sat there in AWE lol im like uhhh ok i had NO idea wat 2 say y would she ask me2 stay if she WAS MADD?? im rele lost u have nO idea! so i went 2 practice andd i had trouble breathin again..maybe i have asthma? lol well i dunno but its so hard 4 me 2 breathe after practice i showerd and ate and shyt and drove 2 brits house and gave her and jill her present and we had cake and then me brit and jp all chilled in brits room 4 a while and i kept sayin i hadda go lol..like seriously i dont kno if ud feel the same but i felt rele weird..we were in a fite and it seemd like we were just bein nice 2 get along with eachother cuz i was over i dunno...but we actualy kind had fun lol..she kept tryin 2 put this song on but i wouldnt let her so we were kinda wrestling lol and i had her pinned up again the wall..what now bitch! =P haha well even tho we were talkin and laughin last nite i still feel like things r weird btween us soo w/e i dont kno wat 2 do then i got home and was supposed 2 study 4 math and human geog and more 4 psych..but i watch real world and LAGUNA BEACH! omgg stephen is sooo gorgeous lol..and every girl is so freakin pretty wtf kinda show is this! lol 2day in psych my seat got moved cuz i talk 2 jamie 2 much! ughhhhh what a dick i sware i hope he doesnt remember by 2maro but he prolly will cuz hes anal about that kinda stuff =( thats not fair..now i cant cheat on ne tests and i cant talk 2 ne1 except ELENI.. funness lol grrr then after skool i went 2 mcdonalds with amanda and jamie thatt was funn lol and i went into joes 2 apply 4 a job! yay mayb ill get it so i can get sum money...now im bored and im gonna go take a nap lol t2ul x0x0x

(1 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [27 Sep 2004|07:35pm] [ mood | infuriated ] [ music | kanYe weSt - hiGher ] o mann 2day totally freakin sucked!!! as each HOUR passed by it just kept gettin worse and worse which didnt help at alll. lol soo 1st hr i get into class..i guess my horrible day didnt start during that hr butt just keep readin =)..ok shut up nuthing happened 2nd hr either lol..but thennn i get into 3rd hr - which is rele my 4th hr english class...andd i dont even wanna think about what happened..but just 2 make along story short i got caught passing answers acros the room and my teacher took the sheet that they were on...wow can u sayy totally screwed?? even if she suspects me of cheating or doesnt belive the story im GOING 2 tell her...thenn i could b kicked out of nHs..and suspended..not good at all... then i get 2 psychology...and i guess that hour is always funn cuzz of our little corner lol butt the bell 4 B lunch rings andd i was supposed 2 sit with brit..but y the fuck would i sit with her if shes mad at me for the stupidest reason...so i told her i was studyin with sum1 else and that i wasnt sittin with her 2day..obviously she didnt care but ya kno wat?? neither do i! we get back 2 class after lunch and i ask the teacher a simple question and like bursts out on me..like that wasnt bad enuff after my whole day was fucked up lol...then that class ended and i went 2 physics...that class was OK i guess cuz me and paul kinda bonded lol..but i DID get yelled at for my belly showing...whoops... after that class i went 2 HISTORY! yayy and i prolly failed that test...it actually wasnt that badd and when i say fail i dont mean like a 50% lol butt i mean like a C or low B and i cant afford those grades..i nEEd and A so sum1 pray 4 a miracle 4 me... and i totally bullshitted the essay but w/e..theres rele no point in studying 4 that class cuz i either always get the answers or even if i do study my ass off the ?'s on the test are the kind of questions tlike on the SATs lol...like everything COULD b right..but only one choice is the BEST..ughh i hate those kinda tests thenn i get home and i talk 2 Jill - brits sis - and i asked wtf was goin on with brit...soo she said that it was her fault and she was sorryy..but this is what happened: After skool on Friday I saw David and Jill and Brit and i said hi 2 all of them and then i hadda run 2 catch my ride...so jill said 2 brit "i dont kno y theyre not goin out already" and brit was like "cuz she doesnt like him"...sooo jill accidentally slipped and said YEA SHE DOES lol oops brit new i liked him last yr but things were kinda weird btween me n david..i was off and on with likin him...soo i dunno what happened but this yr i barely talked 2 him at the beginnin..then me and david did start talking and likin each other and i knew if i told brit that i DID like him then shed just b like no ya dont julie get over him blah blah and w/e so i didnt even bother telling her but i did tell jill soo THATS why shes freakin madd..omgg get over it...u fuckin couldnt even tell ur BEST FRIEND that u had a boyfriend..and let alone u dropped me 4 him....now thats something u get mad about..not this pussy little shyt..then i saw her at bball 2day and she didnt say a word 2 me..and when we were scrimaging she came up next 2 me and just stood there and looked at me and im like uhhh hi brit..and she just smiles like WTF hello im sooo lost lol u have NO idea o yea and i thought since skool ended and everythin my day wouldnt actually get much worse ya kno..so i get 2 bball practice andd mr montimurro is like julie i needa talk 2 u in private...so i go over and hes like did u start an argument last week at practice?? so im like wtf r u talkin about? hes like o i just wanna kno cuz sum1 told me that u started this fight on the courts and i knew i didnt expect sumthin like that from u so i was just askin...ummm hello..do I look like the kind of person whoo would start a fight?? especially with people on the bball team lol grrrr i have 3 fuckin tests 2 study 4..i mite not go 2 skool 2maro..i needa break frum everything..and its brit and jills bday 2maro o great..wat a time 2 get in a fite rite??? w/e welll that was my terrible day and i honestly kno that this week is gonna suCkk major balls arleady lol.. hope yall enjoyed this long ass entry =) x0x0x

(5 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [25 Sep 2004|07:29pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | Usher - Can You Help Me ] soo yesterday i get into skool and david comes up 2 me and asks what im doing on october 15th...hmmm well thats definitely that day of homecoming lol...so i told him i didnt kno if i was definitely goin but if i was i definitely wanted 2 go with HIM... during lunch me brit and jill discussed homecoming and if they were goin and i was gonna go if they went and all this shit and then we said we discuss it durin the weekend so i could tell david my answer...then after skool brittany calls me and tells me that shes madd cuz i told jill shit that i never told her..so she said i wouldnt b talkin 2 her 4 a while... wtf! everything i tell jill i tell her AFTER i tell brittany so i dunno what the fuck is goin on..and obviously shes not even callin me back soo i dont know what 2 do..im not carin that much tho cuz i dont even kno what i did 2 piss her off...w/e that afternoon i picked up paul from his g/fs house..kinda..well he was walkin...soo we talked a while and then we drove 2 jamies house =) andd then jamie and ally got in the car and we drove 2 cypress park and GUESS who we c there!?!? yess we see david bressler lol howw freakin weird is that? i told him...actually jamie told him that i was goin 2 homecoming with him lol soo yayy! so im goin 2 homecoming with david. i guess im glad i made that decision..even tho i hate dances! lol but i kno ill have fun.. well paul went in 2 play for david while david came over 2 talk 2 us..and paul sumhow hurt his toe and it was rele disgusting and bleeding and ahhh lol i HATE blood..im never gonna be able 2 be a doctor! it seemed like he was gonna cry but obviously he wouldnt do that in front of us all soo i felt really bad! =( after all the excitement of my day i went home and stuffed my face cuz i had 2 fast til the next nite...its hard bein a jew! lol then i sat on my ass all nite and i wanted 2 go 2 pelkeys party but it was a freakin holiday so i wasnt allowed out..doesnt that suck?? then i also sat on my ass all day 2day ughh exciting weekend..i should b studyin 4 all my tests but its 2 boring doin that lol... yay 4 hurricane jeanne! lol i knew wed get hit by at least ONE! finally i think all those 11:11 wishes came tru jamie! hahah im jk thats definitely not what i wished 4 lol =) well now jenn hates me cuz of all this shit with david and she claims 2 have liked him..but she also claims 2 have liked evry boy that i like soo w/e i dont care nemore....this is why i hate people! can u understand now?? yea ok lol well out t2ul x0x0x0 love ya'll

(3 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [23 Sep 2004|07:08pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | jojo N bow wow - baby its you remiXx ] ive had wayy 2 much shyt 2 keep up with this thing lately...first off...i stilll havent gotten my freaking parking decal! lol geeeze this is rediculous but i guess its ok cuz as longa s i keep my papers on the dashboard then they cant give me a sticker ohhh yea and i also had my brother convice my mom 2 let me go 2 bball last week lol this was our theory - jew dinner starts at sundown lol..and i wouldve been home from practice at 7..and sundown is like 7:15 or 7:25 lol sooo that totally worked and my brother is the bestest =..but bball is gay cuz its only supposed 2 b open gym and theyre not allowed 2 tell us what 2 do..but of course we did drills the whoole time..thats ILLEGAL bitches! well i still hate most people andd skool..and most of my classes..but w/e i kno who my tru friends r and obviously ima survive in skool..i hope lol...unless i get SLEEP DEPRIVATION AND DIE!!! lol jamie umm i kinda dont wanna go 2 homecoming yet at the same time i kinda do..so maybe im hopin that i dont get asked so it will save me the pain of having 2 decide between those choices lol every1 in my freakin classes thinks im high cuz i sniff markers lol people say i needa b in HA (huffers anonymous) lol...so 2day EVERY1 in my freakin physics class was like OMG JULIE UR SO HIGH..i was soo hyper and i couldnt shut up and stop laughing and saying stupid things lol it was kinda funny tho..and i hadnt even sniffed markers 2day! so i dunno wtf THEYRE on lol haha wow im so retarded ooh...i HATE guys that freakin lead u on...grrr people needa stop that..grow the fuck up already damn k im done =) x0x0x0x <3 Julie

(2 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [15 Sep 2004|03:45pm] [ mood | FUCKIN PISSED ] [ music | usher - throwback remix ] o man dont mess with me rite now. i am so fuckin pissed off u have NO idea. i HATE every1 - people piss the fuck out of me i HATE all my fuckin claSses especially physics cuz SOME PEOPLE are faggots grrr i HATE this fuckin skool..it could rot in hell i sware ive been waiting 2 weeks 2 get a decal and EVERYTIME i stay after skool 2 get 1 mr weaver or mr mcguire either left or werent there that day. how fucked up is that? so my mom brought the car 2 skool 2day and this was t he last straw...of course THEY BOTH LEFT...wtf..so freakin PARKING DECAL (lol) is going to actually GET a parking decal b4 i ever do cuz people suck soo badd...u have no idea i burst into flames and yelled at my mom when i found out that they werent there.... i have open gym 4 bball 2day..and fuck being jewish..its a damn holiday and my mom told me icant go cuz its a holiday! OMG i understand its a fuckin holiday but why the fuck cant i go for just ONE hour?? is that such a big problem??? basketball is the onlyyyyy thing that relieves me of my stress...i picture me throwing the ball against PEOPLES FACES AND KILLING THEM AND OF COURSE THE BALL WILL GO IN THE HOOP AND I WILL WIN lol hahah wow im so screwd up in the head but its only cuz i hate everything right now well if u even read this thanks 4 listening and im sry i had 2 get all my anger out sumwhere..and half of it went 2 my mom and the other half went 2 this lol i think thats a record for the most times i said the word FUCK...or no i think my record was in my notes 2 josie when i yelled at her there hahah..now im goin cuz i got a headache from yelling for 20 minutes =) lol BYE

(1 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [14 Sep 2004|03:26pm] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | brad paisley - whiskey lullaby ] 2day suckedd rele badly..first off..the 1st 14 kids of my english class switched into cremin AND i hatee like all those kids i switched with! theyre just not FUN people like the other 14 who stayed with mrs corll..ughh its not fair i think i did alrite on my psych test...JAMIE IM GONNA KILL U!! where were u?!?! well since im a nice person and if u read t his i got u the answers =)...but i dunno if all mine are rite and i dunno if he gives diff makeup tests...sooo yea lol physics is SO gayy..everyday we get into class and we ask our teacher 2 show us that path of hurricane ivan and nowww TROPICAL STORM JEANNE!!!!!!! yayyy lol...so he shows us everything about every hurricane..like which 1 had the strongest winds..which 1 lasted the longest...etc. i think we learned about EVERY hurricane that ever occured lol buttt its cool cuz it takes up so much time! lol hopefully jeanne will come now cuz ivan sucks balls =) ok i rele am a nice person haha finally no tests 2 study 4 2day and i get 2 take a nap...even tho i take a nap on days that i have 2 study too lol.. so tell me the truth...is this the new cooool thing 2 do - have ur mom buy a jetta 4 u, and get tints n rims..yea it must be lol what a freaak!

(let the rain fall down) [12 Sep 2004|06:42pm] [ mood | sad ] [ music | switchfoot - meant 2 live ] wow sry i havent ritten in a while..ive been kinda busyyy..my mom wants 2 return this computer and get the same 1 but cheaper from a different place... soo i cant save NETHING onto it..and i cant download NETHING onto it - i just cant do anything! lol it sucks!!! well i crammed all that fuckin book (huck finn) for nothing..cuz were not having the test until sumtime next week..andd i prolly failed american history cuz it was rele hard..andd noww im soo pissed off that im switching fuckin english teachers..and im switching with people that im not even friends with...funn shyt this weekend was kinda cool..xcept friday kinda sucked lol.. um well i went 2 jamba juice with serra =) and we were supposed 2 visit josie..sooo this is all of what happened ONLY IF UR INTERESTED! lol: I call Josie when i get 2 serras house and shes like im at a friends house call me in 10 min 2 get directions...so we go 2 jamba (andddd i saw max palombo!! if thats how u spell it lol) then like 25 min l8r i call Josie bak and im like where is the house..so she says the development name andd serra was like o i kno where that is lets go..SO we drive all the way there and i park in a spot and call and she doesnt pick up her fone so i wait and call like 5 more times and she still doesnt answer..so im drivin around 4 lyk 10 min 2 c if i could c her outside newhere..and then i stop again and park and call like 10 times lol but she doesnt pick up still.....then i see a boy crossing thru the parkin lot so im like hey rnt u josies brother..so hes like yeaa..her bro is SOOOOO cute =) so i told him 2 get josie and he ran 2 get her and he came back and was like she shut the door on my face..so i drove around 2 where the building was that josie was in and her bro goes bak up 1nce more and and tells josie again that i was outside and he comes back down and says OH JOSIE LEFT..and im like whered she go? and he said i dunno she just left...then josies friend comes downstairs...and i opened the window and shes like o well were goin 2 the movies 2nite u can prolly find her there...so im like where is she now? and shes like o she just left... soo im like well now u kno what im not even gona bother seein her 4 the rest of the time shes down if she cant come outside and say hi 2 me then at like 10 josie called and was like where were u..and i told her i stopped by and hes like nah ah blah blah blah and i was soo madd i yelled at her and told her she was a fuckin liar and she got rele upset lol grrrr people r so fucked up!!! but u kno how i am..i always forgive people so easily..lol w/e..the rest of my weekend was cool tho..i went 2 the oasis..andd the mall and ALL around coral springs again lol how pissed off am i?? VERY! where the fuck does ivan think hes going?? he cant leave me like that...thats so rude..now we have a 4 day week instead of a 1 day week.. or no day week...lol is that possible 2 say? a no day week? lol o mann im so retarded but im still pissed..thanks a lot ivan for ruining my week! kk well im goin 2 try 2 start studyin 4 my next freakin test =( x0x0x byeee

(let the rain fall down) [07 Sep 2004|07:08pm] [ mood | annoyed ] [ music | ryan cabrera - on the way down ] yayyy im finally on my new computer..but it sucks cuz none of my shyt from the other computer is on it yet...all my away messages r on aim on the other 1..all my documents..my mp3's...just basically EVERYTHING lol butt this computer is soo freakin amazing! i luv it i finalllly finished Huck FInn..andd now im TRYING 2 study 4 american history but this is sooo boring..i pray that we have NO 7 2maro..ahh thatd b the best day ever.. so last nite brit came and picked me up anddd..we had sum funnn experiences lol..like visiting the ghetto...sitting in a car at nite in front of a park with no lites..afraid 2 get out cuz we were gonna get raped lol...and we took a madd long drive around coral springs..then we went back 2 her house and just chilled the rest of the nite. woooo! it was funnnness lol umm 2day sucked..i didnt do nething at all..and it suckss even more that we actually have skool 2maro...ughhh its soo not fair.. o btw..in my last entry.. i rele meant how i love how people NEVER call me back..not after i call them...not at 11:30 at nite...not even the next day...if u wanna make our friendship be somewhat like it used 2 b than y dont u make the fuckin effort 2 do sumthin about it...butt that aint gonna ever happen again so i dunno why im even bothering yumm dinners here... t2u laterr x0x0x

(let the rain fall down) [06 Sep 2004|04:12pm] [ mood | ...I CANT SIT STILL... ] [ music | hilary duff - flyyy ] i cant do it nemore!!!...ive been reading for 4 days straiight..and now its monday and i only have 10 pages left...i just cantt look at the damnn book nemore!!! grrr this sucks im boredd outta my freakin mind i got nothin 2 do alll day xcept read and studyy. brittany said shed stop by later.. that will prolly b the best part of my day =) lol my new computer is finally set up..but of course i havent been able 2 use it cause since my bros down he set it up in HIS room and i get 2 use the shitty computer (this one) until he leaves 4 college again lol..thaanks a lot! i love how some guys can b so immature...i mean i thought telling ur friends that u hooked up with a girl..WHEN U DIDNT...kinda died down after at least 9th grade...i guess not? people have serious problemss i alsooo love how people* dont have the decency 2 call me back... like they SAID they would..until prolly 11:30 at nite...ughhh w/e

(2 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [05 Sep 2004|08:02pm] [ music | h.o.u.s.t.o.n - aiNt nOthin wRong ] ok..my aunt just moved down from new york...just in time 4 the hurricane..which suckss lol..but thats not the point...she freakin takes over my damn computer and i can never get on..and when i DO get on..she tells me 2 get off so she can check shit....ughh this definitely wasnt a fun 5 day weekend lol.. well this hurricane was soo incredibly gay..couldnt it have hit just a little bit harder and so we had a little more damage?? i mean not deaths or nething butt..ya kno lol..the most excitement i got these past few days was a tree fell at the entrance 2 my neighborhood and it blocked the entrance lol..it was hott shyt..ill try 2 post a pic of it.. last nite me and my bro drove around town for a while and it was sooo windy and dark and the streets were deserted and it was scaryy as fuckk lol but it was still cool... all i can say is....Ivan u better get ur ass over 2 florida!! lol ive been reading Huck Finn alll damn weekend cuz there was absolutely NOTHING 2 do..im on page like 220 or sumthin outta 300...omggg u dont understand i cant do it nemore..this is torture!! good thing we have 2maro off...and i rele hope mckinley doesnt give the test on tuesday thatll b soo not fair...but then again lifes not fair lol.. ok well i dont kno wat else 2 say..so im outt x0x0x <3 Julie

(let the rain fall down) [01 Sep 2004|08:36pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | Lean Backkk!! ] holler...what is up every1?? im sooo bored and pissed off! i wrote a whole entry yesterday n it got deleted soo im gonna try 2 remember what i wrote... well 1st off...i hate school...i guess thats not 2 hard 2 remember from yesterday lol..my classes still suck and theyre all madd hard ughhhhh. i rele hope mckinley doesnt give us the test on tuesday since we dont hav her 2maro friday ORRr monday!! she prolly will tho which suckss speaking of not having classes 2maro or friday...thank u frances =) lol i want it 2 hit us only cuz i want our skool 2 blow away lol butt i dont want it 2 hit us cuz i dont want my house 2 blow away! soo i guess either way i lose. thats so not fair! i alsoo 4get 2 mention howw awesome last weekend was...well on fridayy i chilled with brit jill and jp "at brits house" haha then saturday actually kinda sucked...i didnt do nethin so i guess my weekend wasnt THAT awesome..but ya kno..thenn sunday was definitely the highlite of it all! pasquales is soo amazinggly amazing LoL..wow i definitely needa go there more often =) i think thats pretty much all i had 2 sayy..i will talk 2 yall lataa! x0x0x

(4 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [30 Aug 2004|06:20pm] [ mood | weird ] [ music | ashlee - nothing new ] yayyy arnt u all so proud of mee???!! i havent written in this thing in thee longest time..well alotta shyts happened lately...but that would take yearrrs 2 explain it lol.. soo umm yea skool started andd it rele suckss balls. i hate all my classes. theyre madd hard! my american history test was kinda rele hard 2day...but everytime i say i did rele bad i always end up doin betta then a lotta people n they end up gettin pissed lol soooo ill just say that i think i did awesomwee! HaAh =)... everyday ive been coming home from skool with thee worst headaches everr! i dont kno what 2 do..i think im dying. lol i justt spent 1.5 hrs on the fone with the coolest person ever..ilu serra goudarzi!!! lol im glad everythings kool between us! i should b studying 4 forensics but nahh im good.. ok the vMas kinda sucked... jessica sucked...hoobstank sucked...wtf! come on..get people that can actually sing! 2nite is road rules!! exciting shyt...i cant wait 4 the new season of real world...how amazingly hott do those previews look?? =) score! i also cant wait til next monday....therez noo skool! yayy lol...josies comin down on saturday andd i think i mite chyll with her...but who knows..gay shyt always ends up happening..soo w/e..well jus have 2 c what happens... well im outt 4 now...x0 peace 0x P.S. JAMIE UR RIGHT...STEPHEN IS THE BESTEST! lol thankss 4 my layout 143!!!

(4 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [05 Dec 2003|10:18pm] [ mood | weird ] [ music | Maroon5 - Harder to Breathe ] wowwwww this past week has been sooo stressful....i had 2 do a hUge international relations project and stuff....2 page report with poster....it toook 5 hours 2 finish when katie came over 2 do it lol...yea then i had my art test that i didnt study for and surprisingly i got a 90....then the worst part of the week was friday which i had the rest of my tests....1st hour - chemistry...definitely failed that..2nd hr - english test on of mice and men...hah that was the easiest stuff evEr.......then 4th hr - math test soooo easy...there was a surprise but JUST incase people are reading this that have mrs snyder i wont tell what it was haha im jk she made every1 write their name on a sheet of paper and half the class picked 2 names each and we got 2 work with 2 other people on the test WOOOO!!!! i def got a 100....and thatll bring up my grade =) then we skipped 5th hr and i had aspanish test 6th hr lol wow isnt that soo much fun??? yea well i probably did OK on it..not great tho...w/e...well yea forgot 2 add that i think it was monday that i had my bball game...we beat pompano like 43-26 but i only got 2 play a FriCkEn minute..i was sooo pissed of.the 1st 2 games i played 2 full quarters..then my coach put me in for a mINUTE?! wtf is that all about? then 2nite we played coconut creeek! we won i think 43-12 and i got 2 play 2 quarters again lol thats weird! buttt yea the other team was soo mean the punched katherine slammed my jaw up and 3 hUGE girls fell ontop of me ahhhhh good thing i didnt die lol..they prolly crushed all my bones....yea well im done talkin about nothin important lol ill write more 2maro..maybe...byye

(let the rain fall down) [26 Nov 2003|03:42pm] [ mood | hyper ] [ music | Blink 182 - Feeling This ] heeey...today was cooool lol...well actually yesterday was soo much fun...i had a history test that i totally thought i failed but i got back 2day and got a B+..only cuz it was on a curve tho lol...then i also got back my spanish vocab test and i got a 96! wooah im good haha.....so yea the good part about yesterday: after school every1 from the basketball team including alyssa from varsity walked 2 mcdonalds....i was soooooo hyper and it was sooo much fun...i really like the people on my team..theyre pretty coool....i misjudged some people but i think i no better than that now =)...yea and after that we took a bus to northeast highschool and we WON! it was 60-10 and i scored 9 points! ahh i feel so good...i wish i coulda played last year..if i got a chance i couldve done the same thing..buut no..i supposedly sucked reallllllly bad last year...now i only just suck lol j/p...yea and um on monday we had our first official game against cooper city and we won that too...amazing game...55-2 go us baby! i scored 6 points that game 2! haha wow thats great lol....we have a pretty good team...i guess we need 2 c how we play against pompano deerfield and ely to see how good we actually are lol...i hope were undefeated again like last year..it would make me soo happy =) well yea last weekend on friday i shopped..of course lol...and then saturday i went to the MALL(lol..not too much shoppin i promise) wit brittany and we chilled..it was funnn..then saturday i had erikas sweet 16...it was coool....well this is a loNg weekend and i hope its gonna b fun but i cant wait til winter break..thats gonna b amazing! soo much fun i hope...alritey im done talking peace out mah dAWgies lol...byeee

(2 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [19 Nov 2003|05:46pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Kelis: Milkshake =) ] wow im suuch a nice person....i just go outta my way 2 do things 4 every1 i kno..lol...maybe ill just be a bitch from now on..haha jk...ummmm well i had the picnic and it was funnn stuff...nah it was boring..but the people i hung out with were cool...some of them at least =) lol....on monday i had a art history test...it was hard and we had 2 write this huge esssay that i did bad on.o well...then tuesday i had a HUGE chemistry test that i know i failed...and also a HUGE spanish test that was on the hardesst lesson of the book..but guess what!!!! i got a 91.5 woooo im AmAzInG lol...and i also had an international relations test 2day that i got an A on..yay lol....but now i have a math test 2 wory about lol...practice yesterday was a nitemare..every1 was doin what they wanted ...the coach wasnt there so the assistant was and hes a fricken idiot..but what else is new??? hmm our 1st game is monday..who wants 2 watch us lose? lol im OuTTiE...peaccce

(4 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [15 Nov 2003|07:09pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | dMx: Where the Hood At ] seee...im gettin better haha. thursday i dont remember what i did..but i had practice after skool...and umm yea well duh i have practice every day after school lol..then yesterday i had practice again lol...thenn i slept for like 3 hrs then heather called me and we were gonna go out 2 a movie and we wanted 2 invite dara and katherine soooo we called dara and then we called katherine n we were all talkin for like 4 hrs..except for the fact that dara hung up and never called us back lol..nah but it was coool...and we totally 4got about the moviez lol...then 2day i had practice aGaiN...its getting much better than the beginning...and we scrimmaged and stuff and did fun things 2day it was fun..then i came home and slept again lol..im always soo tired...well 2maros the basketball picnic and im excited 4 that woo! lol...im out..i gotta headache..<3 me

(3 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [12 Nov 2003|07:27pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | Outkast: Hey ya ] wow its just a constant repeat of last time..can u guess what im gonna say??? yea its been ANOTHER two weeks since ive updated lol...im sorry!!!! im soo fuckin busy tho...like seriously...so much school work, and when im not doin work or studying for 50 billion tests a nite..im either at school basketball practice or out with my friends...lol...so i guess its not that im lazyy...ist just that i dont have time..yea..just say that lol....um well my computer broke last week on thursday for sum stupid reason...and so my mom and i went out and bought a new 1 and its soo slow cuz my DSL isnt hooked up 2 it..and it suxx even more cuz none of my documents are there..my MP3's arent there...my AIM isnt there..i cant do nething but talk to people..and i mean thats good and all..but im soo used 2 talking on AIM so thats why it suxx lol...well newayz my bro got my other computer workin again..but he reformatted it and it still works like shYt..so im back to using the new computer....all my away messages are delete..and i had about 50 billion of those too lol...shyyyt im pissed!!!!! what can i do tho?? so yea...report cards finaly come on friday but i already kno wut im gettin so it dont really matter....6 A's and a B+ wooo!!! im good lol...well yea conditioning finally ended...it was soo cool actually being near people i LIKED..now im playing basketball on a team where im only friends with literally 3 people outta 14 lol....it really sux..its mostly me and dara that hang out tho so its pretty cool...our team is ALRITE...ill tell ya..we wont be as AMAZING as we were last year..haha thatll never happen again lol..maybe if i make varsity...cuz then it will be the same team from last year but well ALL b on varsity instead of JV and well me soOoo damn fricken good! lol but i doubt ill make varsity so i wont get my hopes up lol...i needa find some more people i know 2 read this stupid journal cuz i sware im just not gona write in it nemore unless people post..and um no1 seems 2 be doing that sooo yea.....well im outtie..another test 2 study for! lol wish me luck..x0x0x byyye

(1 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [30 Oct 2003|04:58pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | Chingy: HoLidae iNn ] woow...well its been another 2 weeks or so since i updated lol im soo damn lazy...my basketball season ended...we came in 2nd place and got a trophey =) it was coool stuff lol...here are the grades on mi report card... CHEMISTRY 88/B+ ughH fuckin stupid ass teacher ENG HON 98/A INTERNATIONAL RELA 96/A PRE-CALCULUS 94/A AP ART HISTORY 85/B......ok that was an 89 before and alla sudden it dropped 2 an 85 without my teacher adding or changing ne grades??? thas weird! i gotta check that out AP SPANISH 94/A WORLD HISTORY 94/A woooo! yay im excited except for da fact that my chem teacher is an AsShole lol wat else is new tho..she has been since the 1st day of skool okk...ive had basketball conditioning for the past month or so..its pretty cool..i mean seeing every1...i wanna get in shape but who the hell wants 2 stay after school to run 2 university drive and back????? tryouts are next week..im nervous haha...but seriously this year is gonna suck sooo much...its not the same coach as last year...all new r freshman trying out...no cool juniors =( lol....its only gona b me dara n katherine...i mean thas cool n all...but i miss last year..why does life have 2 keep going? lol seriously tho...i kno therre are memories..but it doesnt c0mpare 2 how much fun i had..im really madd about that..w/e obviously life keeps going on...for most people at least...lol...my knees r doin alrite..theyre MuCh better but they still hurt a little...DUH theyre bruised! lol. ok heres somethin cool...if u really think about it...these are all the things that are natural HIGHS...u kno like getting HIGH but without drugs lol... 1. Falling in love. 2. Laughing so hard your face hurts. 3. A hot shower. 4. No lines at the supermarket 5. A special glance. 6. Getting mail 7. Taking a drive on a pretty road. 8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio. 9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside. 10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer. 11. Finding the sweater you want is on sale for half price. 12. Chocolate milkshake. (or vanilla!) (or strawberry) 13. A long distance phone call. 14. A bubble bath. 15. Giggling. 16. A good conversation. 17 The beach 18. Finding a 20 note in your coat from last winter. 19. Laughing at yoursel f. 20. Midnight phone calls that last for hours. 21. Running through sprinklers. 22. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all. 23. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful. 24. Laughing at an inside joke. 25. Friends. 26. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you. 27. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep. 28. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner). 29. Making new friends or spending time with old ones. 30. Playing with a new puppy. 31. Having someone play with your hair. 32. Sweet dreams. 33. Hot chocolate. 34. Road trips with friends. 35. Swinging on swings. 36. Wrapping presents under the Christmas tree while eating cookies and drinking your favorite tipple. 37. Song lyrics printed inside your new CD so you can sing along without feeling stupid. 38. Going to a really good concert. 39. Making eye contact with a cute stranger 40. Winning a really competitive game. 41. Making chocolate chip cookies. 42. Having your friends send you homemade cookies. 43. Spending time with close friends. 44. Seeing smiles and hearing laughter from your friends. 45. Holding hands with someone you care about. 46. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change 47. Riding the best roller coasters over and over. 48. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you. 49. Watching the sunrise. 50. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day. those are amazingly true..at least most of em...seriously all those things make me really happy..even thinking about it without it happening lol....dont listen 2 me tho..these r my depressing days haha....much love...peacce

(2 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [17 Oct 2003|12:16pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | Foutains of Wayne: Stacys Mom ] yeeea i havent updated in lyke 2 weeks but thats alrite...well about chemistry....i didnt fail my test..but i did get a C! haha...i also went in AFTER 1st hr that day which i had my test 1st hr...and i went 2 her after skool 2 give her a packet that was due and she bitched at me for signin in after her test lol it was prettty funny...spanish im studying this weekend wit serra =)......ummmm basketball we lost our last 3 games which sucked soooo much cuz we were in 1st place....so instead of being 8-1....were now 8-4 lol...playoffs are monday and im assuming baby blue lost cuz if they won we woulda been tied for 1st and had a tie breaker yesterday..but we never did sooo mayb theres stilla chance that were in 1st! lol....um on wed. game i played melissa and aimee's team aand this really gigantic lady tried 2 knock the ball outta my hand but she knocked me wit it and threw me up in the air...i landed on my knee soo hard i sware u coulda heard it frum outside lol...well that was only the 1st quarter and i couldnt play the rest of the game cuz i couuldnt walk =( and the next day i had schoool and i couldnt walk up and down stairs and i limped all day cuz my mom wouldnt let me bring the crutches that we have 2 skool....dont even ask y cuz i dont know lol...i went 2 the doctor n he said i tore a few ligaments and bruised it extremely bad..which would explain the fact that it was 3 times the size as the other knee haha...well todays friday i can walk much better but it still hurts somewhat,....i cant play bball 4 a week....this always seems 2 happen 2 me...i always miss my playoff games cuz of some stupid reason...and as for my bag 4 bball that i bought....i thought it was still a little big but i brought it 2 skool newayz i had 2 stuff everything in it like my lunch and sweatshirt and EVERYTHING!..but it turns out that i wasnt the only 1 whos bag was soo big lol....alrighty theres nothing left 2 say soo im going 2 eat =) haha byye

(2 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) [05 Oct 2003|08:35pm] [ mood | jealous ] [ music | 50 cent: High All The Time ] ok my life is sooo boring theres nothing 2 write in this stupid journal...well um yea... 1. school still suxx... 2. most people r still assholes...there r a few exceptions tho i can admit... 3. i got in a fite with my best friend... 4. i got a 100 on my spanish test!!! lol... 5. im going 2 b failin chemistry if i dont get a tutor hahah 6. i played bball and football with like 10 people 2day it was coool...and 7. i bought a new bag for bball conditioning and practice and rec n stuff... 8. and of course every1 has 2 add this...the *person* im obsessed with will NEVER EVER like me nothing is new..no1 reads this...its yom kippur and i cant eat until 6 2maro night...greeaaat lol

(let the rain fall down) [28 Sep 2003|05:14pm] [ mood | stressed ] [ music | Simple Plan: Perfect ] i cant take this nemore..all people are just assholes. like not even 1 person can be nice at all im sick of it...i hate the yelling..i hate the fighting..i hate the crying..but i guess i gotta just get used to it.first tell me how messed up this is...the whole summer i actually felt good about myself..my fricken forehead cleared up and shyt n everythin was all goood...but now that school starts i have so much fuCcin stress that its rediculous..i cant stand my friends being assholes to me..i cant stand boys..but then again who can??...i cant stand studying for like 6 tests a week..every damn week..and then hours of homework! and now because of all this stress my face is starting to break out and i feel like shyt..again..i dont know what to do! i can never be happy for more then a day...what is wrong with me? i honestly dont even know why im trying out for basketball considering everyone on the team is such a bitch to me..like i dont do nething 2 ne1..and i dont even get ne respect..i just get put down to make me feel even worse then i already do..but w/e i just needa deal wit it and get on with my life..cuz things will never change..people will never change..school will always stay the same..so whats there to do?

(let the rain fall down) [27 Sep 2003|05:25pm] [ mood | accomplished ] [ music | Edwin McCain: I could not ask for more ] i am so damn lazzzy!! im not really sick nemore but im still a little sore lol...i ran a mile yesterday..which was friday...and this afternoon i ran too..but not for long...i also ran wednesday but since it was raining we ran inside the friggen school! 6 times around the whole upstairs of school!! it was soo gay..but w/e.. im not as sore as i was the 1st time i ran in like 7 months lol..i cant belive how big of a moron I am..on my int relations test i put that baghdad was a country! wtf is wrong with me?! i also dont think i did too good on my math test..but i got a 100 on my spanish test..so that makes me feel better lol..well its rosh hashanah...so happy new year to all of u who celebrate it =) this weekend suxxxx..i gotta study for art history and history..which imsure il fail both of em! greeat..there goes my B average in ArT!

(let the rain fall down) im gonnna die! [23 Sep 2003|05:10pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | Bowling for Soup: girl all the bad guys want ] woow...ive been soo busy and sick and sore!! well its only really been a week since i havent updated..but still umm well basketball we won our last 3 games soo now were 5-1 =) score..were amazing! i luv my team the people on it are soo cool...sunday i ran a mile to get in shape 4 conditionin then the next day...the day i actually HAD conditioning i was soo sore and i had 2 run amost 2 miles from university drive and back 2 school...we also lifted weights and shyt...now its tuesday and i cant move a friggen muscle in my body...i had 2 hold onto people to walk up the stairs in school lol...to top it off im sick =( and then tomorrow i have more conditioning ugh! i wont be able 2 walk for a weeek lol...umm well ive been doing ok in school...i have all A's and a B in art history..but ima bring that grade up soo is alll goood haha...now i gota go study for international relations i hate schoool soooo damn much!

(2 are comin' clean || let the rain fall down) screw deadjournal!!! [14 Sep 2003|12:50pm] [ mood | hungry ] [ music | Beyonce ft. Sean Paul: Baby Boy ] oh my gosh! Ive been trying to figure out how to make my own style 4 like..ever!! But i have no clue how to do anything. For now i am just going to start out plain and simple...and yea it will probably stay that way for a looong time...maybe even forever lol..ive been using DJ but alot of people i know have LJ so thanks soo much 4 giving me the code angela!!! well i hafta go study..IF anything exciting happens later ill write more..but for now my life is just boring as i sit here and try to study for 3 tests lol... -love me

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